Lost to Me Now

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Now I know the full force of the pain of a broken heart. I thought I’d been in love before. I cried over several men before, but the hurt passed. You breaking up with me six months ago was devastating. Only through the agony have I realized how deeply I care about you. D.B.

Get a life! Move on!
All the usual advice
That flies over my head.
How CAN I explain?
How can I get through?
Without him beside me.
I’d rather be dead.
To my dreams and desires
He is lost to me now.
And lost he’ll remain;
And the only thing living
Is my sense of real pain.
Taken from “Lost Advice” by Alison Stormwolf

I’m Sorry of Being Myself

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Repeatedly in anger I spoke to you in a manner I shouldn’t have. I accused you of things you never did and I knew it. It was my short comings I tried to hang them on you. I hurt you too much emotionally with my behavior and now you won’t speak to me. Please forgive me. E.D.

I’m sorry of being so emotional.
I’m sorry of being so possessive.
I’m sorry that I cry for you.
I’m sorry because I can’t live without you.

I’m sorry for the tears you shed.
I’m sorry for the damage I made.
I’m sorry I’ve made you sick.
Sorry I hurt you so deep.

I’m sorry for giving you sleepless nights.
I’m sorry for each and every fight.
I’m sorry for your pain & agony.
I’m sorry for the missing harmony.

I’m sorry of being so immature.
I’m sorry now that can’t be cured.
I’m sorry of being myself.
I’m sorry that I’ve failed.
Sourav RCY

How Can It Be

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You are not who you made me believe you were. What you shared about your past was ALL lies! You got me to tell you my dreams and then said yours were the same. You worked so hard at being something you’re not, and for what? To get into my pants?  You’re a FAKE!  D.B.

How can it be
That you can’t see me?
I stand before your non-seeing eyes
With blood on my wrists and begin to cry.
I run to the comforting corner between the walls.
I cannot take this hurt, these lies; not at all.
How can it be
That I’m on my own, but still not free?
From an on-line poem – author noted only as “justjosie”

Forgive Me My Love

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If I live another hundred years there will not be enough time for me to show you the depth of my thankfulness for your forgiveness. I know what I did was wrong; VERY WRONG and I deeply regret it. Your love is a gift far beyond what I deserve. You won’t be sorry. L.P.

I know I fought with you without any reason
forgive me my love.
I know I used bitter words for you
forgive me my love.
I know I hurt your feelings when you were innocent
forgive me my love.
I know I abused you even though you were right
forgive me my love.
I know I didn’t believe in you as my partner
forgive me my love.
I know I didn’t praise your good deeds
forgive me my love.
I know I didn’t wipe your tears when you were sad
forgive me my love.
I know I didn’t value your love and affection
forgive me my love.
Now, I have realized all my mistakes that I made
I promise you I will never let you down again.
Please forgive me and come back to me
Forgive Me My Love” by Ravi Sathasivam

An Expiration Date

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How could I have known when you said “I love you” it had an expiration date? I thought you were still as deeply in love with me as I am with you. Now you say you can’t help it, but love for me is no longer in your heart. I am so lost and confused with no idea what to say. K.W.

I never felt true love
until I was with you,
and I never felt true sadness
until you left me.
Anonymous

Forget and Smile

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You said we’d be together again; to give you a few months to get things together. Not even a week later you wouldn’t even speak to me. For weeks I tried again and again to talk to you, but you would never listen, so I finally had to say to my self goodbye to you forever. C.S.

Remember me when I am gone away,
Gone far away into the silent land;
When you can no more hold me by the hand,
Nor I half turn to go yet turning stay.
Remember me when no more day by day
You tell me of our future that you plann’d:
Only remember me; you understand
It will be late to counsel then or pray.
Yet if you should forget me for a while
And afterwards remember, do not grieve:
For if the darkness and corruption leave
A vestige of the thoughts that once I had,
Better by far you should forget and smile
Than that you should remember and be sad.
“Goodbye” By Christina Rossetti

An Unperfect Actor

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It’s a shame I injured our love so badly. What a mess. My mistakes haunt me, but I did learn from them. I love you very much and hope in time you’ll give me another chance. I don’t deserve it, but if you find it in your heart I will move heaven and earth to be worthy. C.H.

As an unperfect actor on the stage,
Who with his fear is put beside his part,
Or some fierce thing replete with too much rage,
Whose strength’s abundance weakens his own heart;
William Shakespeare from “Sonnet XXIII

Without Regret

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Only in retrospect am I able to clearly see how kind you were. With all your heart you loved me. Even at our worst when the relationship was falling apart you never once said you regretted loving me. I will always be grateful. You taught me how to love better. K.M.

Guard well within yourself that treasure, kindness.
Know how to give without hesitation,
how to lose without regret,
how to acquire without meanness.
George Sand

What Can I Do?

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Calling at 2am to say I still love you was a mistake. Truly sorry I bothered you. I’d had a few drinks and my guard was down because our anniversary was earlier this week. It’s been months and neither of us has moved on. Is there a message in that for us? D.S.

You were my everything;
Now you’re gone.
I don’t have the strength
To carry on.
I loved you so much;
You were all I had;
Now my whole world
Is depressing and sad.
I’d like to start feeling
Other than blue,
But you were my everything,
What can I do?
Taken from “You Were My Everything” by Joanna Fuchs

Smile Because it Happened

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Loneliness that felt like it was going to kill me is mostly gone. There were moments when the pain of missing you made it hard to breathe. At times now I look back and enjoy good memories; sometimes it still hurts like hell. You’re in my heart for the rest of my life. D.E.

Don’t cry because it’s over.
Smile because it happened.
Theodor Seuss Geisel (Dr. Seuss)