Category Archives: Aching Heart

I Thought I Could Imagine

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broken20heart11The love in my heart does not care if we are together or not. You no longer being here does not diminish my feelings; that only increases my pain. I dreamed that you came back. One day I think you will, but will I still love and want you then? C.B.

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I think you still love me,
but we can’t escape the fact
that I’m not enough for you.
I knew this was going to happen.
So I’m not blaming you…
I’m not angry, either.
I should be, but I’m not.
I just feel pain. A lot of pain.
I thought I could imagine
how much this would hurt,
but I was wrong.
Haruki Murakami

Do You Really

Posted by James Browning on

broken20heart11Where things for us go now, I have no idea. You don’t know for sure what you want and are moving out. You say you love me, but those words seem to come from you mind and not your heart. You say you want our committed relationship to continue. Do you really? C.B.

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The scariest thing about distance
is that you don’t know whether
they’ll miss you or forget you.
Nicholas Sparks, “The Notebook”

You or Me?

Posted by James Browning on

broken20heart11You don’t know that I know you’ve been untrue…again. Carrying this around is killing me. How could you?!? I forgave you once and I can’t do it again. This will be the end, but who will speak first? You or me? Today or tomorrow? Soon for sure. G.W.

I tried so hard.
I tried my best.
I gave you my all,
and now there’s nothing left.
You stole my heart,
then tore it in two.
Now I’m falling apart,
and don’t know what to ……….
I Tried So Hard
By Whitney Barton

Pretended You Cared

Posted by James Browning on

Mbroken20heart11aybe they’re right. Maybe I did get my hopes up too high. Maybe I was in over my head. Maybe it was stupid of me for ever thinking you loved me. Maybe I was just tired of being alone and pretended you cared when I knew you didn’t. Now you’re only a regret. G.T.

Broken Love Candy Heart. Image shot 2009. Exact date unknown.

… every glittering kiss and every touch of flesh
is another shard of heart you’ll never see again.
Neil Gaiman

Your Secrets Poisoned Me

Posted by James Browning on

broken20heart11Even when we were happy, you seemed sad. The reasons were hidden away but their insidious damage was done just the same. Like rot that slowly turns good wood into rotten, your secrets poisoned you, corrupted our love and your taint rubbed off on me. Y.M.

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Some people turn sad awfully young…
No special reason, it seems,
but they seem almost to be born that way.
They bruise easier, tire faster, cry quicker,
remember longer, and, as I say,
get sadder younger than anyone else in the world.
I know, for I’m one of them.
Ray Bradbury

From the Distance

Posted by James Browning on

broken20heart11The last thing I want is for you to go, but I know you’re going. You don’t love me like I love you. You’re still searching and don’t really know yet what you need. No words can’t change your mind. There is nothing I can do but let you go and love you from a distance. S.D.

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Fire runs through my body with the pain of loving you;
Pain runs through my body with the fires of my love for you;
Sickness wanders my body with my love for you;
Pain like a boil about to burst with my love for you;
Consumed by the fire with my love for you.
I remember what you said to me;
I am thinking of your love for me;
I am torn by your love for me;
Pain and more pain.
Where are you going with my love?
I am told you will go from here
I am told you will leave me here;
My body is numb with grief;
Remember what I have said, my love
Good bye, my love, good bye.
recited by a Kwakuitl Indian of Southern Alaska

It Does Not Matter

Posted by James Browning on

broken20heart11Shock still engulfs me. One day you were in love with me. The next you wanted nothing to do with me. There was no doubt within that I loved you, but you leaving made me realize how very deeply I feel about you. It does not matter. You’re gone. L.L.

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Softly as a gentle breeze,
Love crept into my heart
So softly I did not realize
Until we came to part.
‘Twas then that love so suddenly
Grew claws, and without warning
Clamped around my heart and left
Me bleeding and in mourning.
So stunned was I by this attack,
I did not cry out “stay! ”
And, frowning at my silence,
You turned and walked away.
I never knew, until you left,
How much you’d meant to me
And now you’re gone, I guess
Our love was never meant to be.
“Never Meant To Be”
by Earthbound Angel

Maybe One Day

Posted by James Browning on

broken20heart11She chose you and left me. Standing by and watching you hurt her is the hardest thing I’ve ever done. My heart silently weeps and my soul aches for her. I can’t love her more than I still do, but for now I can’t say a word. Maybe one day I can hold her again. R.R.

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You didn’t love her.
You just didn’t want to be alone.
Or maybe, maybe she was
just good for your ego.
Or, maybe she made you feel better
about your miserable life,
but you didn’t love her.
Because you don’t destroy
people you love.
Grey’s Anatomy

Blink Away the Tears

Posted by James Browning on

broken20heart11You waited till Christmas Eve to say you didn’t want me anymore. It will be a long time before I can do anything but dread the coming of the holidays? Form now on tree lights, wreaths and wrapping paper will only remind me of the day we said goodbye. T.G.

The lonely girlSometimes you just have to
hold your head up high,
blink away the tears,
and say goodbye.
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