I Don’t Trust You

broken20heart11You still don’t understand. You just don’t get it. I trusted you and you repeatedly violated the faith I had in you. Now you say you’re different; that you’ve grown and learned better. But you know what? I don’t trust you. Never will.


Breaking someone’s trust
is like crumpling
a perfect piece of paper.
You can smooth it over,
but it’s never going
to be the same again.

No Way To Stop It

broken20heart11Hurts accumulate and create cracks where certainty once flourished. Even with great intention and an open heart, the conditioning that taught a person can’t be trusted is difficult to over come. I yearn for a time before you damaged my belief in you. SR


…pain’s like water.
It finds a way to push through any seal.
There’s no way to stop it.
Sometimes you have to let yourself sink
inside of it before you can learn
how to swim to the surface.
Katie Kacvinsky

Novelty of the Moment

broken20heart11And now you want a life with me and wonder why I hesitate. You taught me how to mistrust. You showed me almost unimaginable pain. You treated sacred feelings and actions for the novelty of the moment. Now you say you’ve changed. But so have I. NC

Never allow someone
to be your priority
while allowing yourself
to be their option.
Mark Twain

From Now On

broken20heart11I still love you in spite of all the times you hurt me with your infidelities and lies. Now you say you want only me. A part of me wants to say “yes”. A stronger part screams “NO”. Sooner or later you’ll only shatter my heart again. I am certain of it. RO


I’m not upset that you lied to me,
I’m upset that from now on
I can’t believe you.
Friedrich Nietzsche

Is Love Hiding

broken20heart11How the hours change things. The night is so different from what is here now in this new day. Last night we were in love and today it seems to have evaporated away. What is real and what is not? Was last night love or illusion? Is love hiding or are we hiding love? JR

rumpled bed

The sound of sunshine shouts,
Across my window sill;
A drum that echoes through,
A world that once was still.

Gone with the morning;
Where did the feeling go?
What was here,
Is here no more;
Leaving only shadows
Of the night before.

Two daytime strangers wake
A long way from the night.
We couldn’t make the journey
From the dark to the light.

Gone with the morning;
What happens I do not know.
The bed is warm
Where we slept.
Sunshine came
And we were swept away,
Leaving us victims
Of the new day.

What was here,
Is here no more.
We are shadows
Of the night before.
I wish I knew
Why love just fades
Away and dies;
Like stars that live by night
And tumble from the skies.
James Browning © 1975

I Thought I Could Imagine

broken20heart11The love in my heart does not care if we are together or not. You no longer being here does not diminish my feelings; that only increases my pain. I dreamed that you came back. One day I think you will, but will I still love and want you then? C.B.


I think you still love me,
but we can’t escape the fact
that I’m not enough for you.
I knew this was going to happen.
So I’m not blaming you…
I’m not angry, either.
I should be, but I’m not.
I just feel pain. A lot of pain.
I thought I could imagine
how much this would hurt,
but I was wrong.
Haruki Murakami