Category Archives: Aching Heart

An Ocean of Regret

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My love for you has lasted well after the happy days when you and me were ‘we’. I lost you a long time ago, but my heart still yearns for you and refuses to let go. Why couldn’t I love you then like I do now? Realizing what I had once it’s gone is life in an ocean of regret. G.L.

She’s somewhere in the sunlight strong,
Her tears are in the falling rain,
She calls me in the wind’s soft song,
And with the flowers she comes again.
Yon bird is but her messenger,
The moon is but her silver car;
Yea! sun and moon are sent by her,
And every wistful waiting star.
Song” by English author Richard Le Gallienne

Along the Same Fault Lines

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I can’t stop wondering why you ran away. I think I know, but the thought hurts. You still love me but are ashamed to admit what happened. You left me, went back to your old boyfriend and got hurt again, didn’t you? It strangles my heart every time I imagine you with him. L.L.

 

Until this moment,
I had not realized
that someone could
break your heart twice,
along the very same fault lines.
Jodi Picoult

A Heart Around Your Name

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No longer do I know where you are. Your phone number changed. You’ve moved far away with no forwarding address. No one I ask is aware of where you ended up. I date others and go out with friends, but my heart is still yours. Wherever you are, I love you, always. S.S.

I think of you in Silence.
I often speak your name.
All I have left are memories
and a heart around your name.
My heart aches with sadness
and all my tears flow.
What it meant to lose you
no-one will ever know.
Unknown

Love’s Toughest Work

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The worst mistake of my life was to break up with you. My fear of commitment made me run. The harder you tried to love me and hold on, the greater distance I created between us. I picked fights for no reason to justify leaving you. I’m so sorry. Please forgive me. J.B.

 

Forgiving is love’s toughest work, and love’s biggest risk.
If you twist it into something it was never meant to be,
it can make you a doormat or an insufferable manipulator.
Forgiving seems almost unnatural.
Our sense of fairness tells us people should pay for the wrong they do.
But forgiving is love’s power to break nature’s rule.
Lewis B. Smedes

Finding Out

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Finding out about your childhood caught me by surprise. It explains why you have difficulty trusting anyone, especially those you love. I’m so sorry you were abused as a kid, but it’s not my fault. I’ll help you away way I can, but won’t let you abuse me because of your past. A.O.

My name is Chris,
I am three,
My eyes are swollen
I cannot see,
I must be stupid
I must be bad,
What else could have made
My daddy so mad?
I wish I were better,
I wish I wasn’t ugly,
Then maybe my mommy
Would still want to hug me…
Author Unknown

Hurts the Deepest

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You’ll never know I go to sleep thinking of you.  It’s then I lose myself in wishing we could be together as my imagination takes me to a place of secret fantasy. Then I remember you’re married and cry myself to sleep. You’ll never know how much I love you. T.M.

Love that we can not have
is the one that lasts the longest,
hurts the deepest
and feels the strongest…
Kay Knudsen

Sky Without Stars

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I’ve recovered from a lot of pain before, but I can’t seem to get over you. Pretending I don’t love you hasn’t worked. Putting all physical memories of us in a box & leaving it at a friend’s house didn’t help. Most of me is still with you where ever you are. Please come back.  E.B.

The sky without stars:
like sleep without dreams
like song without music
like rose without smell
like face without smile
like ME without YOU!
Unknown

Hard To Breathe

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When we broke up, I could hardly breathe. Once I caught my breath, I didn’t want to eat. When food interested me again, I wanted to be alone. Eventually I was able to be with people again but they made me think of you. Those thoughts made it hard to breathe. S.J.

Emotions are wild horses.
It is not explanations that carry us forward,
but our will to go on.
Paulo Coelho

Like I Once Did

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When you said you loved me, I didn’t realize it came with the disclaimer “unless my ex wants to get back together”. She’ll break your heart & is just using you. When she throws you aside, I won’t be waiting for you with open arms. I could never trust you again like I once did. D.K.

You left me Boundaries of Pain,
Capacious as the Sea,
Between Eternity and Time,
Your Consciousness and me.
From “You Left Me” by Emily Dickinson

Like Salt Into an Unhealed Wound

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You being gone is difficult every day, but most challenging on holidays. When others are celebrating as couples and families, I only want to be alone. That we had such great times throws memory like salt into an unhealed wound. Oh, how I miss you my darling. S.L.

Taken from “The Loss of Love” by Countee Cullen
All through an empty place I go,
And find her not in any room;
The candles and the lamps I light
Go down before a wind of gloom.
Thick-spraddled lies the dust about,
A fit, sad place to write her name
Or draw her face the way she looked
That legendary night she came.