Won’t Be the Same

broken20heart1I was blind and didn’t see it coming. Saying you were leaving to be with someone else was like being punched in the stomach. Stunned and feeling like I wanted to throw up, I watched you leave. Now comes the pain. I won’t be the same for a long time. L.H.

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Bushwhacked,
I examine my hands.
Same hands.
Rings still there
but no longer valid.
From “Split: A Memoir of Divorce”
by Suzanne Finnamor

Genius of Sadness

broken20heart1While the world sleeps, I lay on my bed, broken inside and awake. When the world is awake my heart cries to be unconscious. When I see someone happy I’m reminded how sad I am. When I see grieving, my sorrow increases. Living without you hurts! A.W.

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She was a genius of sadness,
immersing herself in it,
separating its numerous strands,
appreciating its subtle nuances.
She was a prism through which
sadness could be divided
into its infinite spectrum.
Jonathan Safran Foer

Looking For a Way Out

broken20heart1In front of me you often flirt with other guys. Sometimes you go on and on. In some twisted way, my jealousy seems to make you feel better about yourself. Keep on hurting me like this and one day soon I won’t get jealous. I’ll just leave… permanently. R.Y.

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I tried so hard.
I tried my best.
I gave you my all,
and now there’s nothing left.
You stole my heart,
then tore it in two.
Now I’m falling apart,
and don’t know what to do.
Divided by decisions,
burned by the fire.
Confused by your words.
Tempted by desire.
I’m living in the present.
My mind is on the past.
Not knowing what I’ll lose.
Not knowing what will last.
Blinded by fear.
Drowning in doubt.
Struggling to be free.
Looking for a way out.
“I Tried So Hard”
By Whitney Barton

A Lost Little Girl

broken20heart1My childhood was rough. Everything possession I came from hard work. Working three jobs at once was difficult. All that pales in comparison to losing you. Even after all I’ve endured I’m right back where I started, feeling like a lost little girl again. S.D.

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I am still standing on same spot,
Where you left my heart to rot,
I first thought I’d make it through,
But, seems like I can’t stop loving you,
It is getting very hard to be strong,
’Cause I have been missing you so long,
And now I don’t have anymore tears to cry,
Still my heart’s can’t seem to say goodbye…
Anonymous

The Pain Still Lingers

broken20heart1The pain of having a broken heart isn’t enough to kill me, but is enough to keep me from living again. I’m stuck between a broken heart and one that doesn’t feel. Alternating between is agony. I want to get over you and I don’t at the same time. T.P.

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People have scars in all sorts of place;
like secret road maps of their personal histories;
diagrams of their old wounds.
Most of our wounds heal,
leaving nothing behind but a scar.
But some of them don’t.
Some wounds we carry with us
everywhere and through
the cut’s long gone,
the pain still lingers.
Meredith Grey

W H Y

broken20heart1Things were going so well. I had begun to believe I didn’t need you and was finally getting over our breakup. I was almost accustomed to life without you and doing good on my own. Then I saw you on the street. You smiled at me and ruined it all. H.S.

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When will it stop?
the pain
that darkness
that… that… that…
that part of me
that was Y-O-U!
Why can’t you fill it?
Why did you leave?
Why, Why, Why?
Anju

Fade Away In Flames

broken20heart1When you leave in the morning I know you’re not coming back. We had our time and now we have to move on. For a few hours tonight I beg you to pretend you are in love with me like you used to be. Let’s light the fire within us again and fade away in flames. S.D.

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Turn down the lights, turn down the bed,
Turn down these voices inside my head,
Lay down with me, tell me no lies,
Just hold me close, don’t patronize… me,
Cause I can’t make you love me if you don’t,
You can’t make your heart feel something it won’t.
From “I Can’t Make You Love Me” sung by Bonnie Raitt
Written by Reid, Michael, Shamblin, Allen

You’re My Drug

broken20heart1I know I’m better off without you, but I remain drawn toward you like I have been to no other. It’s self-destructive to love someone so secretive, shadowy and dangerous. I’ve turned into an addict. You’re my drug. I can no longer get a fix because you left me. M.W.

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I am taking this in, slowly,
Taking it into my body.
This grief. How slow
The body is to realize
You are never coming back.
Donna Masini

Deaf and Dumb

broken20heart1I’m dazed and amazed by how fast you dropped me and moved on. I thought we’d be together till death parted us, but we lasted only until you grew tired of me. So blind I was to not imagine the possibility. Love isn’t only blind. It’s deaf and dumb as well. R.E.

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I would go from someone
that you loved
to someone you used to know.
Collin Raye

Sometimes I Forget

broken20heart1Sometimes I pretend everything’s alright and my heart’s not broken. When everyone else thinks I’m fine, occasionally I forget for a little while I’m not. I’ll be okay. It will just take time. You don’t deserve the love in my heart. Somehow I will make it go away. A.B.

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You will never know true happiness
until you have truly loved,
and you will never understand
what pain really is until you have lost it.
Anonymous