Tag Archives: trying to let go

Before I Become A Ridiculous Fool?

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broken20heart1The hardest part about you leaving me is I can’t stop thinking about you. There are fewer thoughts now than right after you left, but I still spend too much time wishing things could be good for ‘us’ again. How long can I hope that before I become a ridiculous fool? T.G.

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I want to feel your touch
on my skin.
I want to hear your voice
whisper in my ear.
I want you to love me
like I loved you.
I want you to hurt like
I have been hurting
I wish fairy tales were true
because you
you would have saved my heart,
not broken it in two.
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It’s My Fault You’re Gone

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broken20heart1Forcing myself to forget you doesn’t work. I’ve tried over and over. Oh, how I wish the love in my heart would fade, but it’s stuck there. It’s my fault you’re gone and don’t want me. I’m beginning to believe I’ll never get over the pain and heartache of losing you.

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Wanting him is hard to forget,
loving him is hard to regret,
losing him is hard to accept,
but even with all the hurt I’ve felt,
letting go is the most painful yet.
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All Cried Out

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broken20heart1When you left I learned someone could actually die of a broken heart. I denied you were gone. I got angry. I tried bargaining to get you to come home and was depressed for months when you wouldn’t. Now I accept you’re never coming back. Goodbye my love. C.S.

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I gave you all of me…
How was I to know
You would weaken so easily.
… I gave you my love in vain.
My body never knew such pleasure
My heart never knew such pain
And you…you leave me so confused
Now I’m all cried out over you.
From the song
“All Cried Out” by Allure

The Lesson

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broken20heart1What is the lesson to I’m to learn from loving you? Is it that true love is lasting since I have carried you in my heart for decades? Is my lesson to be careful of who one loves? Is it to know the pain of love because I have caused it to others so often? What is it? F.Y.

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The first step to wisdom is to know you know nothing
the way to appreciate is to start with nothing.
Well, all I know now is that I don’t have you
and all I posses is my craving for you.
I feel I’ve needed you since the beginning of time
on my way to wisdom I ask, will you ever be mine?
“Wisdom” by Derek del Barrio

So Wrong

Posted by James Browning on

broken20heart1Time is healing my broken heart and clearing my mistaken mind. Your opinions of me were so wrong. I was never as bad as you made me out to be. My opinions of you were so wrong too. You weren’t all that great and did little for me except make my life miserable. P.S.

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A man never knows
how to say goodbye;
a woman never knows
when to say it.
Helen Rowland

Letting You Go

Posted by James Browning on

broken20heart1Ours is the same old story that everybody knows: one heart holding on; one heart letting go. You want to “try” again like we’ve done fifty times. I know if we do it won’t turn out any different. It’s time we accept we don’t belong together. I am letting you go my Darling. J.J.

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A sad thing in life
is that sometimes
you meet someone
who means a lot to you
only to find out in the end
that it was never bound to be
and you just have to let go.
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…Doesn’t Love Me …Never Will.

Posted by James Browning on

They say there’s a reason and time will heal. But neither time nor reason has changed the way I feel. No one knows how many times I’ve broken down and cried. Through it all everyone thinks I’m fine. I don’t want you or anyone to know how broken I am. N.O.

I want to run, I want to hide.
From all the pain he caused inside.
I want to scream, I want to cry.
Why can’t I tell him goodbye?
I want to move on, I just can’t let go.
I love him more than he will ever know.
I want to start over, I want to feel free!
But this pain will never leave me be.
He hurt me bad, the pain is deep.
From all the promises he couldn’t keep.
All the lies, I heard him say.
Are in my head and just won’t fade.
How can I forget him, leave the him behind.
Erase the memories from my mind.
He doesn’t love me, and he never will.
He will never care, how I feel.
“Heartbreak Poem” by ‘Jennifer’

I Just Feel Pain

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I think you still love me, but we can’t escape the fact that I’m not enough for you. So I’m not blaming you for falling in love with another woman. I’m not angry, either. I just feel pain. I thought I could imagine how much this would hurt, but I was wrong. H.M.

Numbing the pain
for a while
will make it worse
when you finally feel it.
J.K. Rowling

Passion That Unhinges My Soul

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I want to take back at least half of the I love you’s, because I didn’t mean them as much as the other ones. I want to take back the secrets I told you so I can decide whether to tell them to you again. I want to take back the piece of me that lies in you, to see if I truly miss it. D.L.

You know that when I hate you,
it is because I love you to a point
of passion that unhinges my soul.
Julie de Lespinasse

All Too Late

Posted by James Browning on

In our early years together you were magic to me. However, as the mystery unfolded to become the known I took you for granted and wandered off to find someone better. Too late I’ve learned you are the love of my life and now you won’t even speak to me. I’m a fool. A.B.

Love is easy to know,
easier to let slip away
and easiest to grieve for.
It is hard learned wisdom to realize
if I had spent as much energy on loving
as I have searching and yearning for love,
my heart would constantly run over with affection.
James Browning