How Could I?

broken20heart1My calendar has X’s on every day you’ve been gone. It’s been months and still each day begins with thoughts of you. I catch myself wondering if you’re thinking of me at the same time. How could I love you so dearly but hurt you so much? I’m a fool. S.W.

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I go to sleep alone, and wake up alone.
I take walks. I work until I’m tired.
I watch the wind play with the trash
that’s been under the snow all winter.
Everything seems simple until you think about it.
Why is love intensified by absence?
Audrey Niffenegger

Looking For a Way Out

broken20heart1In front of me you often flirt with other guys. Sometimes you go on and on. In some twisted way, my jealousy seems to make you feel better about yourself. Keep on hurting me like this and one day soon I won’t get jealous. I’ll just leave… permanently. R.Y.

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I tried so hard.
I tried my best.
I gave you my all,
and now there’s nothing left.
You stole my heart,
then tore it in two.
Now I’m falling apart,
and don’t know what to do.
Divided by decisions,
burned by the fire.
Confused by your words.
Tempted by desire.
I’m living in the present.
My mind is on the past.
Not knowing what I’ll lose.
Not knowing what will last.
Blinded by fear.
Drowning in doubt.
Struggling to be free.
Looking for a way out.
“I Tried So Hard”
By Whitney Barton

The Right Thing

broken20heart1I should have fought for you and not given up so easily when you told me it was over. Sure I called and wrote for a while but then I gave up. I’ll never know how close I was to winning to you back or if it was hopeless and I did the right thingJ.R.

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Just because I’m not
forever by your side
doesn’t mean that’s not
precisely where I want to be.
Stephanie Laurens

Never In Real Life

broken20heart1To this day I am still hoping you will forgive me and show up at my door. I dream of opening it and standing there you say “I have forgiven you. I love you. I can’t live without you”. Sadly that sort of redemption is only in the movies and never in real life. H.M.

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Betraying and deceiving you,
I surely had no right
To snatch away such a precious gem;
A dark thief in the night.
To hear those forbidden words,
To vanquish all the pain,
To understand my dearest wish:
To know you once again.
Unknown

A Lost Little Girl

broken20heart1My childhood was rough. Everything possession I came from hard work. Working three jobs at once was difficult. All that pales in comparison to losing you. Even after all I’ve endured I’m right back where I started, feeling like a lost little girl again. S.D.

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I am still standing on same spot,
Where you left my heart to rot,
I first thought I’d make it through,
But, seems like I can’t stop loving you,
It is getting very hard to be strong,
’Cause I have been missing you so long,
And now I don’t have anymore tears to cry,
Still my heart’s can’t seem to say goodbye…
Anonymous

Not What I Wanted

broken20heart1Our first kiss in the rain is a sweet memory deeply pressed into my mind. Our last kiss in the bright mid-day sun seems unreal and like something that did not happen. But it did. That was the day our marriage ended. That was not what I wanted. M.E.

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The first kiss
can be as
terrifying
as the last.
Daina Chaviano

Fade Away In Flames

broken20heart1When you leave in the morning I know you’re not coming back. We had our time and now we have to move on. For a few hours tonight I beg you to pretend you are in love with me like you used to be. Let’s light the fire within us again and fade away in flames. S.D.

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Turn down the lights, turn down the bed,
Turn down these voices inside my head,
Lay down with me, tell me no lies,
Just hold me close, don’t patronize… me,
Cause I can’t make you love me if you don’t,
You can’t make your heart feel something it won’t.
From “I Can’t Make You Love Me” sung by Bonnie Raitt
Written by Reid, Michael, Shamblin, Allen

For Only So Long

broken20heart1When a woman gives up, it’s not because she doesn’t love you, but because she’s tired of getting hurt and feels like you’ll never care. For only so long can a girl hang on while a man makes her feel helplessly inadequate and unneeded, like you do me. N.M.

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Sometimes letting things go
is an act of far greater power
than defending or hanging on.
Unknown

You’re My Drug

broken20heart1I know I’m better off without you, but I remain drawn toward you like I have been to no other. It’s self-destructive to love someone so secretive, shadowy and dangerous. I’ve turned into an addict. You’re my drug. I can no longer get a fix because you left me. M.W.

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I am taking this in, slowly,
Taking it into my body.
This grief. How slow
The body is to realize
You are never coming back.
Donna Masini

Too Much, Too Much

broken20heart1Letting go is something you do when you still love someone, but just don’t believe in them anymore. That’s where I am with you. Too many lies, too much fighting, too many sleepless night… too much, too much! The love I need can’t be this difficult. E.O.

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It may seem as the hardest thing to do,
but you have to forget the guy
who forgot about you.
Nicholas Sparks