Category Archives: Guilt and Shame

She Wished To Keep Him

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broken20heart1Long after breaking up with me you wanted us to have sex while your new boyfriend watched. Problem was I still loved you and couldn’t go there, even to be physically close to you. What’s in my heart made anything except truly making love with you impossible. M.E.

bye-love

He had placed himself at her feet so long
that the poor little woman had been accustomed
to trample upon him. She didn’t wish to marry him,
but she wished to keep him. She wished to give
him nothing, but that he should give her all.
It is a bargain not unfrequently levied in love.
From “Vanity Fair”
 by William Makepeace Thackeray

Breaks My Heart In Two

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broken20heart1As the days come and go I try not to think of you. But I do anyway. Attempting to make those thoughts go away only causes more loneliness for you. As difficult as missing you is, it’s not the hardest part. Knowing I once had you is what breaks my heart in two. E.C.

Broken_by_WickedNox

Those who don’t know how
to weep with their whole heart,
don’t know how to laugh either.
Golda Meir

The Thought of Losing You

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broken20heart1No matter how long the truth is left unspoken, it still remains true. We can’t be together now. You have your wife; I have a husband; we both have little ones. Oh, the children; the children. We love them so much and could never leave our kids while they are so small. E.L.

saying goodbye

Love can come and go
receiving less than it deserves.
It’s all part of the game,
the same game that’s
driving me insane.
And I never felt so deep,
so deeply in love.
I can’t even speak
my eyes are welling up.
The thought of losing you
is killing me and I know
it’s killing you.
Quincy Mumford

Constant Regret

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broken20heart1Missing you isn’t the hardest part. Knowing I once had you is what breaks my heart. What drove me to look outside our relationship I can only describe as insanity. When people ask what happened I’m ashamed to admit what I did. I live with constant regret.  M.E.

sad woman

You will never know true happiness
until you have truly loved,
and you will never understand
what pain really is until you have lost it.
Anonymous

You Took It All

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The tears I have cried over you would fill a bucket. I did things against my beliefs because you wanted me to. At your feet I laid everything; my virtue, my pride, my heart, my love and you took it all. Then you left me a heartbroken wreck, inconsolable and hating myself. E.Y.

I was born the day you kissed me,
died the day you left me,
but lived for the time that you loved me.
Anju

Demons I’ve Kept Hidden

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I believed loving you and being loved by you would solve my problems. Our love is vibrant and strong, but could not slay my demons I’ve kept hidden far too long. The monsters got loose. In anger I did things I regret; said what I wish I never spoke. Please forgive me. D.W.

Praise love not over much,
It answer few questions,
Love is such and such,
and has its own congestions.
The lonely seek relief,
Longing breeds distress.
But unity is grief,
love, short happiness.
Wisdom feeds upon the lost.
Beauty comes without a fee.
Other things exact no cost,
the sky, the sun, the tree.
Take it if it fits.
Praise love not overmuch,
nor ask too much of it,
for love is such and such.
Kenneth L. Patton

Somewhere In Time

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The right two people met at the wrong time. Each of us has a commitment to someone else. Those relationships are troubled but only when they’re over can we have a life together. We have to say goodbye my darling until our love can be honorable and honest. L.S.

It’s right that they don’t know
And it’s only right
…that I should go.
But if you’ll wait
I’ll wait too.
I’ll wait all my life
… and more for you.
Somewhere in time
I will swear you’ll be mine
Cos’ I love you,
Love you true.
From “Somewhere In Time” recorded by Lisa Stansfield

The Worst Loneliness

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Losing you has thrown me into a tailspin. Once I liked who I was, but now it’s difficult to even look at my reflection in a mirror. How long will I punish myself for hurting you & driving you away? Will this pain ever leave? How can I forgive myself?  How do I end this torment? R.B.

The worst loneliness
is to not be comfortable
with yourself.
Mark Twain

Along the Same Fault Lines

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I can’t stop wondering why you ran away. I think I know, but the thought hurts. You still love me but are ashamed to admit what happened. You left me, went back to your old boyfriend and got hurt again, didn’t you? It strangles my heart every time I imagine you with him. L.L.

 

Until this moment,
I had not realized
that someone could
break your heart twice,
along the very same fault lines.
Jodi Picoult

A Difficult Gift to Find

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We moved too fast! Our haste created a firebreak where all possibility of love was burned out in blaze of passion. How unwise it was to allow our friendship to join the list of lovers we’ve known!  Lovers are common and easy to locate. A true friend is rare; a difficult gift to find. J.R.

If  little by little you stop loving me
I shall stop loving you
Little by little.
If suddenly you forget me
Do not look for me
For I shall already have forgotten you.
From “If You Forget Me” by Pablo Neruda