Monthly Archives: May 2013

Addicted and Obsessed

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broken20heart1You’re the one who broke my heart. You’re the reason my world fell apart. You’re the one who made me cry. Yet I’m still in love with you and I don’t know why. I’m addicted and obsessed with you as my mind altering drug. Love for you is destroying me a day at a time. L.A.

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Softly as a gentle breeze,
Love crept into my heart
So softly I did not realize
Until we came to part.
‘Twas then that love so suddenly
Grew claws, and without warning
Clamped around my heart and left
Me bleeding and in mourning.
By “Earthbound Angel”

Unwanted, Unneeded

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broken20heart1Hyperventilating, blurry vision, uncontrollable tears, elevated pulse rate, equilibrium off, aching stomach, body aches, can’t keep food down. I’m a mess because you don’t love me anymore. I feel worthless as if I’ve been thrown away; unwanted; unneeded. T.G.

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You know I was there for you every single moment.
You weren’t there when I really needed you.
You preferred someone else when you had
the choice of coming back and start a new page.
You better not come back to me with a broken heart
and ask for my love, because I’m not going to heal you.
I learned from you. You don’t deserve me.
I once loved you and you pushed me away.
I’m not a game you can have me
and then throw me away. Nope.
My dignity comes first.
I’m not coming back!!!
I moved on.
Mahmoud El Hallab

Back When We Cared

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broken20heart1Never will I never forget when you got so angry over almost nothing and ruined everything. You said horrible things, then took your engagement ring and threw it out the window of my moving car. We looked for it, but like the love we had shared, it was gone. R.B.

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Anyone who falls in love is searching
for the missing pieces of themselves.
So anyone who’s in love gets sad
when they think of their lover.
It’s like stepping back inside a room
you have fond memories of,
one you haven’t seen in a long time.
Haruki Murakami

Arrived Right Where I was

Posted by James Browning on

broken20heart1It took me a long time to get over what loving you did to me. I was lost like a boat without a rudder or sail. Even adrift I was still headed somewhere, I just didn’t know my destination. Then I found out. I arrived right where I was, able and ready to love again. B.M.

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If I am to be fallen into love, I will.
And if as a result I will appear to be stupid,
disillusioned, and of poor judgment, I will.
And I would be damned if I cared what other people think.
For I would rather be thought of as all of these things, than not love.
If in loving, I become the naked woman on the horse,
I will ride that horse with my head held high.
This is my spirit. I am unbreakable.
C.JoybellC.

Only A Few

Posted by James Browning on

broken20heart1I learned you saying “I love you” all the time was your excuse for never having to show it. You put yourself before me most of the time and didn’t tell me things you should have. Out of all my memories of you, in only a few did you show me love and kindness.

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Love is not about
how much you say ‘I love you,’
but how much
you can prove that it’s true.
Unknown

Wish I Could Be Free

Posted by James Browning on

broken20heart1My heart is still cluttered with memories of ‘us’. Like in a house filled with too many things I can’t find room for anyone new. It’s pathetic to hold on when you left me behind long ago. I wish I could be free of you. This love I carry is a curse. G.P. 

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I wish I knew how it would feel to be free;
I wish I could break all the chains holding me;
I wish I could say all the things that I should say;
say ’em loud, say ’em clear
for the whole round world to hear.
I wish I could share all the love that’s in my heart;
remove all the bars that keep us apart.
Lyrics from a Nina Simone song
by Bill Taylor and Dick Dallas

A Searching Heart

Posted by James Browning on

broken20heart1I have found love and wallowed in its joy and luxury. I have lost love and been swallowed up by its grief and poverty. Experiences with loving caused the fear of it grow, but courage to embrace it grew more. Knowing the risks does not slow a searching heart. B.P.

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Beauty shines brighter
in the heart of him
who longs for it
than in the eyes
of him who sees it.
Kahlil Gibran

Try Again?

Posted by James Browning on

broken20heart1Back when I loved you and you loved me, we hurt each other so badly. The wounds took years to heal, but over time my heart has mended. Everyday the belief grows stronger that I should reach out to you and say “I still love you. Would you like to try again?” G.O.

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Hate leaves ugly scars,
love leaves beautiful ones.
Mignon McLaughlin

Got Tired of It

Posted by James Browning on

broken20heart1You said I was beautiful. I didn’t believe it. I saw a woman too tall, overweight with lousy hair and big feet. When you’d say “you’re perfect for me” I though it couldn’t be true.  I wish I had listened. I put myself down for so much for so long, you got tired of it and left. C.S.

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She wanted to have him hold her
and tell her all the demons were pretend,
that there was no monster in her closet,
that everything would be okay.
But that was a lie.
The demon was in her head,
telling her she was too fat.
She had to get the demon out.
But she couldn’t do it by herself.
Jackie Morse Kessler

Back To Me Easily

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broken20heart1I wasn’t drunk, but I had put away a few when I decided to call you at home last night. When your phone went unanswered, a tear ran down my cheek. Now I’m glad you didn’t take my call. I promised to leave you alone and I will do better at keeping my word. S.P.

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I remembered your phone number.
It came back to me easily
as these feelings
of loving you.
I miss you,
you know.
I wish you had been home.
Peter McWilliams