So Many Times

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broken20heart11We’ve broken up and gotten back together so many times. You did things you should not have done and I forgave you. Each time I took you back my heart was open. But you finally did it; you hurt me so badly I can’t be with you anymore. J.B.

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Just because you see me posting online
doesn’t mean I am feeling better.
I am in a ton of pain, but my choices
are to sit and cry or try to distract myself.
Posting encouragement for others
or being encouraged myself is how
I face one minute at a time
when everything hurts.
Lisa Copen

I Just Feel Pain

Posted by James Browning on

broken20heart11All your little secrets, deceptions and past unfaithfulness have accumulated into a heavy jagged weight in my heart. Now you just get mad when I question you. Maybe its time you had the freedom to find out what life is like without me. C.B.

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I think you still love me, but we can’t escape the fact
that I’m not enough for you. I knew this was going to happen.
I’m not angry, either. I should be, but I’m not.
I just feel pain. A lot of pain.
I thought I could imagine how much this would hurt,
but I was wrong.
Haruki Murakami

No Boundary

Posted by James Browning on

broken20heart11Our is strong, but so much has happened to scar and injure it. Can we survive it all? We’re going to spend some time apart and I hope it brings healing to both of us. I can’t imagine life without you in it. There is no boundary between who I am and you any more. T.G.

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When I think of you
I think of happiness…
Happiness you’ve brought into my life.
When I think of you
I think of tenderness…
The tenderness of our first kiss.
When I think of you
I think of caring…
And how much we care for each other.
When I think of you
I think of sharing…
Sharing all our thoughts and feelings.
When I think of you
I think of love…
Love I never thought I’d feel again.
When I think of love
I think of you…
I love you with all my heart.
“When I Think Of You”
by Hilary Anne

Do You Really

Posted by James Browning on

broken20heart11Where things for us go now, I have no idea. You don’t know for sure what you want and are moving out. You say you love me, but those words seem to come from you mind and not your heart. You say you want our committed relationship to continue. Do you really? C.B.

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The scariest thing about distance
is that you don’t know whether
they’ll miss you or forget you.
Nicholas Sparks, “The Notebook”

You or Me?

Posted by James Browning on

broken20heart11You don’t know that I know you’ve been untrue…again. Carrying this around is killing me. How could you?!? I forgave you once and I can’t do it again. This will be the end, but who will speak first? You or me? Today or tomorrow? Soon for sure. G.W.

I tried so hard.
I tried my best.
I gave you my all,
and now there’s nothing left.
You stole my heart,
then tore it in two.
Now I’m falling apart,
and don’t know what to ……….
I Tried So Hard
By Whitney Barton

A Second Chance

Posted by James Browning on

broken20heart11We’ve patched things up. I believe in you. I believe in “us” and won’t give us easily. Fear will rear it’s hard sometimes and you’ll have to reassure me you are faithful and committed to this relationship. Forgiveness was not hard. Forgetting takes a long, long time. M.E.

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The biggest risk a heart can take,
A second chance, it’s there to make.
If you do care, then I believe,
We’ll make it through, this time to grieve.
No lies be told, we start as new,
From you to me, from me to you…
I love you.
I forgive you.
But don’t take advantage of that.
From “One Life We Lead” by ‘David’

Filthy Cheat

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broken20heart11You’re a despicable liar. You’re a filthy cheat. You don’t deserve one ounce of respect. How you have lived your life deserves nothing but reproach, but what you have done to me is worse. I loved you. I trusted you. Now I love you and hate you at the same time. GT

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All good is hard.
All evil is easy.
Scott Alexander

Matter of Unaffected Wonder

Posted by James Browning on

broken20heart11Loving you has been one of the most difficult things of my lifetime… and one of the best. In spite of the pain, the love we share has always won out. I only hope that never changes. JB

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That you should care at all for me
has been a matter of unaffected wonder
to me from the first hour until now –
and I cannot help the pain I feel sometimes,
in thinking that it would have been better for you
if you never had known me.
Elizabeth Barrett
to Robert Browning
Sept 18, 1845

From Full Color to Black and White

Posted by James Browning on

broken20heart11When I thought we were over, my entire life changed from full color to black and white. So much of who and what I am is wrapped around you. Thankfully, we made it through the rough spot and we’re healing now. I love you. T.G.

abusive_relationships_0246017It hurts to breathe.
It hurts to live.
I hate her,
yet I do not think
I can exist without her.
Charlotte Featherstone