Shivering at My Own Vehemence

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Do you see what you have done? You’ve driven me to words I can’t even TYPE. Words so foul and vile that they draw me inward, shivering at my own vehemence. This is what you did to me. You destroyed my innocence and wiped your dirty feet on my spirit. J.T.

I know this hurt,
I’ve been hurt before.
My eyes are still stinging;
My body is sore.
I know this hurt,
My stomach in knots.
My whole body’s shaking,
Alone with my thoughts.
I know this hurt,
I know I’m not fine.
But something feels wrong.
What’s different this time?
“Hurting” by Jenna Zito

An Untold Story

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Not once could I find the words. No time or place was ever just right for me to say “I love you”. We’ve been friends for seven years. I’ve loved you as far more than that for five of them. I waited too long and now you’re engaged. Do I keep my secret forever or tell you? W.F.

There is no greater agony
than bearing an untold story
inside you.
Maya Angelou

When Someone Leaves

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In giving my heart to you everything I am went with it… EVERYTHING. I gave you far too much. You left months ago but I am still not over the heartbreak. No longer do I feel like a complete person. There are pieces of me I fear I may never find again. Will I ever?  D.T.

When someone leaves you,
apart from missing them,
apart from the fact that the whole little world
you’ve created together collapses,
and that everything
you see or do reminds you of them,
the worst is the thought
that they tried you out and,
in the end,
the whole sum of parts
adds up to you got stamped
“REJECT” by the one you love.
Helen Fielding

The Love You Threw Away

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Life moves on. I’m married now. I have two children and love my family a lot! Eight years ago you chose another over me. My life had to take a different direction. The one you picked has left you behind and now you want me. I will always love you, but you’re too late. V.M.

You say you want me, and it’s too late.
Once my love for you was so great.
But it’s too late to love me now.
You say you need me, and it’s too bad.
I know the feeling and it’s so sad.
But it’s too late to love me now.
Don’t you know how hard I tried to hold out just for you?
Loving you from memory day by day.
Then someone came into my life, turned my dreams around
…taking all the love you threw away.
From “It’s Too Late To Love Me Now”
By Bourke, Dobbins and Wilson

But Now I Do

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I have been in love again since I fell in love with you, but my heart has never felt so strongly since.  We were too young then to know the value of what we discovered, so it got lost and left behind.  I still carry you in my heart; always will I think. First true love never fades. J.B.

I wasn’t sure I believed in love.
Then I met you.
I wasn’t sure I could make love last.
Then I fell for you.
I wasn’t sure who I was;
What I wanted from life;
But now I do.
I thank you
From the bottom of my heart
For loving me through and through.
“Thank You” by Sarah Spoors

Beyond That Pain

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I’m getting better and  finally am able to gladly recall some of our memories. There’s still a tear here and there, but smiles come regularly now. We didn’t fail. For a time we loved deeply and were happy. Because we are no more does not erase all the good we shared. W.S.

Many of us spend our whole lives
running from feeling with the mistaken
belief that you cannot bear the pain.
But you have already borne the pain.
What you have not done is feel all you are beyond that pain.
Kahlil Gibran

A Feather Falling

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I went by your apartment wishing to catch a glimpse of you, but at the same time hoping I wouldn’t. I feel a strange combination of “I miss you” blended with “I don’t want you”. Even after how you hurt me I still love you, but my pride will never allow me to let you know.  S.B.

A heart breaking
isn’t always as loud
as a bomb exploding.
Sometimes
it can be as quiet
as a feather falling.
And the most painful thing is,
no one really hears it,
except you.
Unknown

Only a Rock

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Why? That word permeates my thinking without a hint of an answer echoing back each time the question is thought. I gave my heart to you as surely as any was ever given. I thought you had given your heart to me and now have discovered it was only a rock. R.F.

Oh heart, oh heart, why must you beat?
Oh heart, oh heart, why must you weep?
Oh heart, oh heart, why must you hide?
Oh heart, oh heart, what lies inside?
Oh heart, oh heart, why must you cry?
Oh heart, oh heart, why do you despise?
Oh heart, oh heart, why are you weak?
Oh heart, oh heart, why can’t you speak?
Oh heart, oh heart, why must you burn?
Oh heart, oh heart, why can’t you learn?
Oh heart, oh heart, what went wrong?
Oh, heart, oh heart, can’t you be strong?
Oh heart, oh heart, why are you blue?
Oh heart, oh heart, where are you?
Whitney Albright

Only In My Mind

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It’s been two years, two months and two days since I last saw you, spoke to you or heard your voice. You’re a thousand miles away living your new life but still are always with me in my heart. I’ve prayed what remains of you within me would leave, but God is not listening. C.E.

The times we shared together
Are remembered now only in my mind.
A small but important part,
Shaping today’s world
With yesterday’s memories.
Another chapter in the
Unwritten biography of my life
Never to be experienced again,
Remembered only in my mind.
From “Visions of You” by George Betts

Afraid to Ask

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You hardly want to touch me, but I remember when you couldn’t keep your hands off me. I’m the same person you said you’ve love forever. What happened? Did you get tired of me? Is there someone else? I feel there is, but am afraid to ask for fear you’ll say “Yes, there is”. A.N.

How do I mend a broken heart?
My entire world has fallen apart.
How do I find hope in a brand new day,
when the one I love has gone away?
My mind overflows with memories of you,
of all that we’ve shared, all that we knew.
I long for your touch and your warm embrace,
the look in your eyes, the smile on your face.
My dreams are filled with your soft gentle kiss,
I wake and cry for all that I miss.
From “Lost Without You” by Jenna