Hoping but Never Finding

broken20heart1It was many years ago when we spent our nights together. I think about you every day. Did your life turn out good? Are you happy? Hindsight has taught how much you meant to me. Every few weeks I go searching on-line for you, hoping but never finding. J.R.

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Years of love, followed by heartache.
Those are the years that define me.
Those are the years that know–
love’s eternity is you.
C. Elizabeth

Being a Grown-Up

broken20heart1My dreams seemed so possible before you. Then I imagined falling madly for someone and being happy with them for the rest of my life. Now I’m afraid. My dreams are broken. My belief in love is no longer pure and naive. I hate being a ‘grown-up’. R.P.

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We ruined each other by being together.
We destroyed each other’s dreams.
Kate Chisman

Tired of Me

broken20heart1In the beginning we were so passionate and into each other. I know that is impossible to sustain but thought we’d settle into a rewarding and fulfilling life together. Instead you tired of me like old clothes you did not want to wear any more and threw me away. D.C.

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I would rather a romantic relationship
turn into contempt than turn into apathy.
The passion in the extremities
make it appear as though it once meant something.
We grow from hot or cold,
but lukewarm is the biggest insult.
Criss Jami

A Woman Like You

broken20heart1The day I met you the yearning began. Getting to know you at work has only made me feel stronger. You’re smart, kind and incredibly pretty. Each night I toss and turn before sleep wondering if a woman like you could ever love a man like me.  S.P.

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Six weeks I’ve wanted you.
I know how you move,
and how the sunlight makes a shadow
on the curve of your cheek,
and the shape of your ear.
Laura Kinsale

Day and Night

broken20heart1It seemed certain we’d always be together. The days, weeks, months and years all ran together. I took us for granted and mistreated you. Only now that you’re gone do I realize you were the center of my universe. Day and night all I think about is you. C.W.

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You never knew the last time you were seeing someone.
You didn’t know when the last argument happened,
or the last time you had sex,
or the last time you looked into their eyes
and thanked God they were in your life.
After they were gone?
That was all you thought about.
Day and night.
From “Lover Mine”
by J.R. Ward

How Screwed Up I Am

broken20heart1I want to give you my whole heart, but can’t. I’m afraid you’ll find out how screwed up I am if you get that close. It confuses me to love you so much and hate myself at the same time. If I don’t share my true feelings with you soon I know you’ll leave me. H.F.

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A woman who is not happy with herself
can never be happy for someone else.
Kamryn Adams

Insanity of My Heart

broken20heart1There have been a few I wished I could fall in love with, but couldn’t. Then there are those like you who I shouldn’t have fallen in love with, but did. Wanting what is bad for me and refusing what could be good is the insanity of my heart. J.B.

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Maybe I was destined to forever fall in love
with people I couldn’t have.
Maybe there’s a whole assortment of impossible people
waiting for me to find them.
Waiting to make me feel the same impossibility
over and over again.
Carol Rifka Brunt

Do You Realize…

broken20heart1We date for a while. Then you don’t return phone calls. After a few weeks you pop up again and we look like a couple for a few weeks. But you always disappear again. A little at a time you’re tearing my heart up. Do you realize what you’re doing to me? D.W.

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I feel I’ve needed you
since the beginning of time
on my way to wisdom I ask,
will you ever be mine?
Derek del Barrio

Lessons to Live By

broken20heart1For years I anguished over losing you. The emotional self-beating went on and on for what I did wrong. I was the bigger villain, but we are both guilty of letting our love starve to death. Now in love again the mistakes of then give me lessons to live by now. S.S.

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And he hated himself
and hated her, too,
for the ruin
they’d made of each other.
Dennis Lehane

Running In Place

broken20heart1We’re okay for a while, then something happens, we fight and split up… again. I can’t count all the times it’s happened. When we’re good for each other, we’re really good. But when we’re bad for each other we inflict wounds that don’t heal. This has to stop! T.P.

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I think it’s time that I let you go.
And it’s really hard for me to do
because I know that there’s a part of me
that will be in love with you for the rest of my life.
But this while running in place and day dreaming
is just not healthy for either of us.
Dawson’s Creek