Once You Loved Me

Regularly I read or hear you are doing well and your career continues to blossom. I am so proud of you and grateful once you loved me and I called you mine. Becoming a rock star was your dream. Mine was to be with you. Glad yours came true. Sad mine did not. S.W.

If you listen to the wind very carefully,
you’ll be able to hear me
whisper my love for you.
Andrew Davidson

Memories that Refuse To Go Away

In the fireplace I burned all the cards, notes and keepsakes of us I could find. The few still scattered through my things are now each rediscovered as a greatly cherished treasure. All I have of our time are those scraps and a head full of memories that refuse to go away. J.R.

All that is gold does not glitter,
Not all those who wander are lost;
The old that is strong does not wither,
Deep roots are not reached by the frost.
J.R.R. Tolkien

What Pain Really Is

I had loved and been loved before knowing you, but with you only have I known the rare and profound romantic love that has been legendary for centuries. Down to the very core of my being I still feel you. Why I allowed myself to run you away I will never understand. C.B.

You will never know true happiness
until you have truly loved,
and you will never understand
what pain really is until you have lost it.
Anonymous

Wanting to Be Lost Again

I have loved profoundly and been loved deeply a few times in my life. But you, and only you, are the one I loved most.  I still dream about you. Frequently I wake up in the morning with thoughts of “us”. Usually I’m happy for what was, but sometimes I am sad for what I lost. K.M.

Within you I lose myself…
Without you I find myself
Wanting to be lost again.
Author Unknown

All Sad Words

There’s a sick feeling in my stomach and a knot in my throat. My head throbs and I can’t eat. Falling asleep is impossible sometimes. We both screwed up and I’m deeply sorry for my part.  Are you suffering without me as much as I am without you?  Can we try again? L.C.

For all sad words
of tongue and pen,
the saddest are those
‘It might have been.’
John Greenleaf Whittier

I’m Sorry of Being Myself

Repeatedly in anger I spoke to you in a manner I shouldn’t have. I accused you of things you never did and I knew it. It was my short comings I tried to hang them on you. I hurt you too much emotionally with my behavior and now you won’t speak to me. Please forgive me. E.D.

I’m sorry of being so emotional.
I’m sorry of being so possessive.
I’m sorry that I cry for you.
I’m sorry because I can’t live without you.

I’m sorry for the tears you shed.
I’m sorry for the damage I made.
I’m sorry I’ve made you sick.
Sorry I hurt you so deep.

I’m sorry for giving you sleepless nights.
I’m sorry for each and every fight.
I’m sorry for your pain & agony.
I’m sorry for the missing harmony.

I’m sorry of being so immature.
I’m sorry now that can’t be cured.
I’m sorry of being myself.
I’m sorry that I’ve failed.
Sourav RCY

I Walk for Hours

Sometimes I walk for hours contemplating life and thinking about all the time we spent together, the euphoria and the crashes; the joy and the heartbreak; falling in loving and then out. What’s done is done. The past can’t be changed… but I miss you like crazy. L.M.

I count the hours,
I count the days.
How much I miss you,
I count the ways.

I miss your voice,
I miss your touch.
And I miss the face,
That I love so much.

How to describe it,
There is no way.
I walk around,
In a permanent daze.

I long to feel,
Your warm embrace.
And to see a smile,
Upon your face.

From the poem “I Miss You” Author Unknown

Remember Me

Becoming engaged to you was one of the happiest moments of my life. Work took me away for a year except for a few weeks, but I thought everything was fine. Now I’m dumbfounded the distance was enough for you to leave me behind. Did you ever love me at all? L.M.

Remember me when I am gone away,
Gone far away into the silent land;
When you can no more hold me by the hand,
Nor I half turn to go yet turning stay.
Remember me when no more, day by day,
You tell me of our future that you planned:
Only remember me; you understand
It will be late to counsel then or pray.
Yet if you should forget me for a while
And afterwards remember, do not grieve:
For if the darkness and corruption leave
A vestige of the thoughts that once I had,
Better by far you should forget and smile
Than that you should remember and be sad.
“Remember” Cistina G. Rossetti

For the Sake of Affection

You send back my letters. “Return to sender” was on your birthday package when it came back. You won’t see me and hang up if I call. You want nothing to do with me. Losing you profoundly changed me. I’m not the same. Wish you could see it. B.D.

If enduring pain,
braving shame,
despising one’s self
for the sake of affection
and accepting misery
without question
is the definition of love
– then, I LOVE YOU.

Just By Living

I will never get hold you, kiss you or make love with you again. You’re marrying another. Your life will not be with me and your children will be with someone else.  It’s my own fault. I thought I loved someone else only to discover too late it was only you I loved all along. L.W.

…here she is,
all mine,
trying her best
to give me all she can.
How could I ever hurt her?
But I didn’t understand then.
That I could hurt somebody so badly she would never recover.
That a person can, just by living, damage another human being beyond repair.
Haruki Murakami, “South of the Border, West of the Sun”