I Do, I Did, and I Will

Some people say the worst way to miss someone is when they are right next to you and you know you can’t have them, but it’s worse when you thought you didn’t want them anymore and then all of a sudden you realize you can’t live without them. I’m so sorry. E.A.

If I never met you,
I wouldn’t like you.
If I didn’t like you,
I wouldn’t love you.
If I didn’t love you,
I wouldn’t miss you.
But I did, I do, and I will.
Anonymous

How Do I Get Through This?

Like sudden lightening came your words “I want a divorce”. I knew we had problems, but though we’d work through them somehow. When I begged you to change your mind you said “NO” and walked away. I have hardly stopped crying since. How do I get through this? B.C.

All I can do
Is cry over you;
Crying over what I hoped could be,
Crying over what will never be.

I’m blind to what’s in front of me,
Seeing nothing but what I want to see,
But that is not realistic;
That is just my imagination.

I cry over the change that is happening just too fast;
Crying over the footsteps left in the sand,
Watching them disappear after every wave rushing upward,
Knowing they won’t reappear.

No matter how much I wish they would
Nothing will make this better,
Not unless I stop crying over you,
Not until I give up on you.
Unknown

Eighty Miles An Hour

Attempting to look ahead at life is like trying to see through a windshield without wipers on a car going eighty miles an hour. Yet looking through the rear view mirror is mostly clear. I did not realize how much I loved you until you were gone. It makes me weep to remember. C.S.

It relieves me not, crying over you,
While in the endless silence of night
The dawn creeps forward
Shunning the darkness in light.
My tears waste away into nothingness,
While my soul reaches for you
My arms betray their strength
Trembling, wishing for us two.
From “I Cry Over You, My Love” By Mistress of Eternity

Can’t Not Do

You say you need space and time to figure things out. If you truly loved me there would be no questions; being together would be a “can’t not do”. The uncertainty shows you don’t love me enough to make a commitment. I accept that and am not waiting for you anymore. C.D.

If little by little you stop loving me
I shall stop loving you
Little by little
If suddenly you forget me
Do not look for me
For I shall already have forgotten you.
Pablo Neruda

Rest of My Life

Lust is a blinder. Trying to blame it on animal instinct makes me sound stupid. Saying it was only sex makes me look ignorant. Saying that me cheating on you was stupid is accurate and its price is so high I will be paying for it the rest of my life. I lost you my darling. C.B.

When you have indulged a lust, your wing drops off;
you become lame, abandoned by a fantasy.
…People fancy they are enjoying themselves,
but they are really tearing out their wings
for the sake of an illusion.
Rumi

Lost Something Wonderful

You never called me beautiful. Not once. Not beautiful, not pretty, not cute, not smart, not interesting, not funny, not sweet, not nice, not awesome. And you know what? I am all those things. In time you will realize you have lost something wonderful; me. It will be too late. K.D.

The Young Man came to the Old Man seeking counsel.
“I broke something, Old Man”.
“How badly is it broken?”
“It’s in a million little pieces.”
“I’m afraid I can’t help you.”
“Why?”
“There’s nothing you can do.”
“Why?”
“It can’t be fixed.”
“Why?”
“It’s broken beyond repair. It’s in a million little pieces.”
James Frey

Only For A Time

Some day when the pain stops I will be a better person for having loved you. All of me and everything I had was given and for a time you gave of yourself equally. Things just fell apart. It’s no one’s fault. Because we lasted only for a time does make “Us” a mistake. C.S.

Our wounds are often the openings
into the best and most beautiful part of us.
David Richo

The Slow Letting Go

You swept me off my feet as I’d never known before. Wonderful. Beautiful. Intense. After a few months the love that came so quickly departed even more rapidly. Then came the time of pretending until neither of us could fool the other; the time of the slow letting go. D.G.

Delusion detests focus
and romance provides the veil.
Suzanne Finnamore

Boiled to Death

Week after week I stayed thinking you’d grow up, you’d change and you’d stop hurting me. Yet, over time how you treated me only got worse. Still I didn’t leave, thinking if only you could see how much I loved you, then you’d change and we’d be OK. It didn’t work. A.O.

I’ve heard that people stay in bad situations
because a relationship like that gets turned up by degrees.
It is said that a frog will not jump out of a pot of boiling water.
Place him in a pot and turn it up a little at a time,
and he will stay until he is boiled to death.
Us frogs understand this.
 Deb Caletti

You Proved Me Right

I barely knew you when I caught you lying the first time. Later came many more untruths I knew were white lies, but never said anything. I always suspected you’d hurt me in time. I just hoped some how, some way you’d prove me wrong. But that’s not what happened. T.M.

We don’t always love what is good or
who is good for us. With frightening frequency
we fall in love with things that damage our life
and people who tear us to pieces.
James Browning