Category Archives: Loving you hurts

Absolutely Nothing

Posted by James Browning on

broken20heart1My prayers are often that I’ll stop loving you, stop wanting you and give up. I guess I have not hurt enough yet. I can’t believe I think that because you have hurt me badly over and over again. Somehow I must find the strength to get away from you. R.H.

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I wish I had
NEVER MET YOU.
Then there would be
No need to impress you.
No need to want you.
No need for loving you.
No need for crying over you.
No need for heart breaks.
No need for pain or tears.
No need for forgotten promises.
No need for rejected hugs.
No need for crying myself to sleep.
No need for acting like you care.
No need for everything you’ve done
to make me feel like absolutely nothing.

What’s Wrong Inside You

Posted by James Browning on

broken20heart1Loving you is an exercise in extremes. We have great times filled with sweetness and love. Then there are the dark ugly days when you’re a completely different person. I’ve asked you over and over to get help for what’s wrong inside you. I can’t take this! J.B.

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Nothing make me happier
and nothing makes me sadder
than you.
Anonymous

Between Now and Then

Posted by James Browning on

broken20heart1You asked me what was wrong. I smiled and said “nothing”. When you turned away and a tear came down and I thought silently “everything is. There’s someone else and soon you’ll leave me”. This between now and then is killing me a little at a time. J.J.

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Don’t be reckless
with other people’s hearts,
and don’t put up with people
that are reckless with yours.
Kurt Vonnegut

Tired of Being Alone

Posted by James Browning on

broken20heart1Maybe they’re right. Maybe I got my hopes up too high. Maybe I was in over my head. Maybe it was stupid for me to ever think you loved me. Maybe I was just tired of being alone. It doesn’t matter. The time we shared was worth it no matter how much it hurts now. E.C.

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The act of forgiveness
is the act of returning
to present time.
And that’s why when one
has become a forgiving person,
and has managed to let go of the past,
what they’ve really done is
they’ve shifted their relationship with time.
Caroline Myss

You’re My Drug

Posted by James Browning on

broken20heart1I know I’m better off without you, but I remain drawn toward you like I have been to no other. It’s self-destructive to love someone so secretive, shadowy and dangerous. I’ve turned into an addict. You’re my drug. I can no longer get a fix because you left me. M.W.

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I am taking this in, slowly,
Taking it into my body.
This grief. How slow
The body is to realize
You are never coming back.
Donna Masini

From Your Poison

Posted by James Browning on

broken20heart1You had a long history of leaving destruction behind you. I thought you’d changed or else I could change you. No matter how much one loves a snake, it is still a snake. I should not be surprised my heart now feels like it is dying from your poison. N.M.

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God knows we’re all drawn toward
what’s beautiful and broken;
I have been, but some people cannot be fixed.
Or if they can be, it’s only by love and sacrifice
so great it destroys the giver.
From “City of Lost Souls” By Cassandra Clare

Every Fairytale

Posted by James Browning on

broken20heart1You appeared to me like a white knight from a childhood tale where lovers live happily ever after.  I made excuses about how you treated me badly. You always were exactly the selfish liar you are. It’s all my fault I pretended you were something you are not. R.P.

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Every fairytale has a villain.
All high quality happy endings
involve a black-hearted monster.
I just didn’t want you to be mine.
Coco J. Ginger

Blinded By Love

Posted by James Browning on

broken20heart1Why I felt I’d never get my heart badly broken still confuses me. I suppose because I was so careful who I let get close to me created a false sense of security. I gave my heart only to one I thought deserved it: YOU. Blinded by love I made a bad choice. T.P.

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The world breaks everyone
and afterwards many are strong
at the broken places.
Ernest Hemingway

Addicted and Obsessed

Posted by James Browning on

broken20heart1You’re the one who broke my heart. You’re the reason my world fell apart. You’re the one who made me cry. Yet I’m still in love with you and I don’t know why. I’m addicted and obsessed with you as my mind altering drug. Love for you is destroying me a day at a time. L.A.

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Softly as a gentle breeze,
Love crept into my heart
So softly I did not realize
Until we came to part.
‘Twas then that love so suddenly
Grew claws, and without warning
Clamped around my heart and left
Me bleeding and in mourning.
By “Earthbound Angel”

Sometimes I Forget

Posted by James Browning on

broken20heart1Sometimes I pretend everything’s alright and my heart’s not broken. When everyone else thinks I’m fine, occasionally I forget for a little while I’m not. I’ll be okay. It will just take time. You don’t deserve the love in my heart. Somehow I will make it go away. A.B.

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You will never know true happiness
until you have truly loved,
and you will never understand
what pain really is until you have lost it.
Anonymous