The better part of me wants to run as fast as possible to find you and hold you. And there is anxiety aroused by the old wounds of us that scream “get away”. I won’t run. I will face my fears. Whatever risk I am taking is worth it. You have my trust. I believe in you. H.E.
Like a bedraggled moth am I,
Drawn dizzily, yet inexorably
Toward the soft ethereal light
That shines from the eyes of a silken Goddess:
Poor stupid creature!
What hope for me?
“Enfants Perdus”
by Danny Rowden
Do you know what it is like to kill love? I do. After you broke my heart I prayed over and over to stop loving you and asked to die in the process. Eventually came freedom from the torment of you. I am still alive and my heart has finally dried out from the grief you left me in.
I thought when love for you died,
I should die.
It’s dead.
Alone, most strangely, I live on.
Rupert Brooke
You threw me on the scrape heap of life. It took years to work past. I’m fine now until you call once in a while and want something. Like a fool I always do it. Afterwards memories and regret don’t leave my thoughts for days. Please let me have peace. Leave me alone. C.B.
I used to like to play with fire,
I was attracted to your flame.
But now I have no desire,
To play that same old cryin’ game.
I’m doin’ fine:
I’ve got my feet back on the ground.
Made up my mind,
Till you start comin’ back around.
From “Leave My Heart Alone”
sung by Deborah Allen
I don’t regret being with you, but don’t wish we were together either. I don’t even like who you’ve become. Yet when I run into you, a deep and painful love awakens. It aches long after you leave. You haunt my dreams and my silence. I fear that may never stop. M.A.
Ask me why I keep on loving you
when it’s clear that you don’t feel
the same way for me…
The problem is that as much
as I can’t force you to love me,
I can’t force myself to stop loving you.
Author Unknown
A once new, now old chapter has closed in my book of love. Another has come and gone leaving my heart more dry than before. There remains fertile ground there, but it becomes more scarce with each who professes love and then forsakes me. E.H.
Love is the One who masters all things;
I am mastered totally by Love.
I am ground sweet as sugar.
O furious Wind, I am only a straw before you;
How could I know where I will be blown next?
What is any of us but a straw in a storm?
How could anyone make a pact with a hurricane?
In the hand of Love I am like a cat in a sack;
Sometimes Love hoists me into the air,
Sometimes Love flings me into the air,
Love swings me round and round His head;
I have no peace, in this world or any other.
The lovers of God have fallen in a furious river;
They have surrendered themselves to Love’s commands.
Like mill wheels they turn, day and night, day and night,
Constantly turning and turning, and crying out.
From “LOVE IS THE MASTER” by Rumi
Looking back ten years later the certainty of youth looks like childish chaos. There’s no doubt we loved each other, but hurt each other so badly. We didn’t know any better. For my part I’m sorry and forgive you for yours. You’re in my heart now and forever. T.O.
I loved you yesterday,
I love you still,
I always have,
and I always will.
Unknown
Thinking I would be safe if I lived alone and did not fall in love again was flawed thinking. Over time my sadness grew and life became colorless with little taste. Now I know mourning a broken heart is better than having a heart that is dead. Finally I am facing losing you. A.E.
The person who tries to live alone
will not succeed as a human being.
His heart withers
if it does not answer another heart.
His mind shrinks away if he hears
only the echoes of his own thoughts
and finds no other inspiration.
Pearl S. Buck
I read that a person actually can die from a broken heart. Stress, loneliness and lack of self-care can kill, just more slowly than most methods. It seems I am committing that kind of slow suicide. I can not get over you and its impossible to forgive myself for hurting you. A.B.
It’s gonna hurt bad
before it gets better,
but I’ll never get over you
by hidin’ this way.
Keith Urban
First I lost you. A month later I was fired from the job I really liked. I had to sell my car. My landlord is selling my cheap apartment, so I have to move. There isn’t much left except my love for you. If I can lose that maybe I will finally be free, but what if I don’t want to be? P.D.
Nothing,
Everything,
Anything,
Something:
If you have nothing,
then you have everything,
because you have the freedom to do anything,
without the fear of losing something.
Jarod Kintz
For hours, even days, I don’t think about you. But when my feelings bubble up I become temporarily lost in thinking of much I loved you then and still do now. Wishing to forget and fighting to hold on to every memory is slowly driving me crazy; a bitter-sweet insanity. L.S.
I have flown and fallen,
and I have swum deep and drowned,
but there should be more to love
than “I survived it”.
Lisa Manchev
Broken Hearts Anonymous 