Category Archives: Can’t Move On

Acceptance

Posted by James Browning on

A couple of your old t-shirts are still here. So are your sweatpants I like to wear. Your softball glove’s in the hall closet. There’s a picture of us still on my nightstand. So many things ’round this apartment remind me of us. It hurts, but it’s more painful to think of letting them go. V.S.

I saw an old friend today
He asked for you
He asked of us
I did not say
‘We are no more’
I answered ‘all is well.’
You are gone
Why can I not accept this?
Time will heal all, they say
But the loss is deep
Like our love once was,
you are irreplaceable
But I will replace you
I will love again
“Acceptance” by author unknown

I Walk for Hours

Posted by James Browning on

Sometimes I walk for hours contemplating life and thinking about all the time we spent together, the euphoria and the crashes; the joy and the heartbreak; falling in loving and then out. What’s done is done. The past can’t be changed… but I miss you like crazy. L.M.

I count the hours,
I count the days.
How much I miss you,
I count the ways.

I miss your voice,
I miss your touch.
And I miss the face,
That I love so much.

How to describe it,
There is no way.
I walk around,
In a permanent daze.

I long to feel,
Your warm embrace.
And to see a smile,
Upon your face.

From the poem “I Miss You” Author Unknown

When Someone Leaves

Posted by James Browning on

In giving my heart to you everything I am went with it… EVERYTHING. I gave you far too much. You left months ago but I am still not over the heartbreak. No longer do I feel like a complete person. There are pieces of me I fear I may never find again. Will I ever?  D.T.

When someone leaves you,
apart from missing them,
apart from the fact that the whole little world
you’ve created together collapses,
and that everything
you see or do reminds you of them,
the worst is the thought
that they tried you out and,
in the end,
the whole sum of parts
adds up to you got stamped
“REJECT” by the one you love.
Helen Fielding

A Feather Falling

Posted by James Browning on

I went by your apartment wishing to catch a glimpse of you, but at the same time hoping I wouldn’t. I feel a strange combination of “I miss you” blended with “I don’t want you”. Even after how you hurt me I still love you, but my pride will never allow me to let you know.  S.B.

A heart breaking
isn’t always as loud
as a bomb exploding.
Sometimes
it can be as quiet
as a feather falling.
And the most painful thing is,
no one really hears it,
except you.
Unknown

Only In My Mind

Posted by James Browning on

It’s been two years, two months and two days since I last saw you, spoke to you or heard your voice. You’re a thousand miles away living your new life but still are always with me in my heart. I’ve prayed what remains of you within me would leave, but God is not listening. C.E.

The times we shared together
Are remembered now only in my mind.
A small but important part,
Shaping today’s world
With yesterday’s memories.
Another chapter in the
Unwritten biography of my life
Never to be experienced again,
Remembered only in my mind.
From “Visions of You” by George Betts

I Am Not There

Posted by James Browning on

I’ve been carrying you in my heart for 31 years. You were mine once, but I wanted to play the field. You wanted a husband, family and children. Before I knew I could love no one else you had married and it was too late. It’s breaks my heart that sickness has taken you now.  D.B.

Do not stand at my grave and weep,
I am not there; I do not sleep.
I am a thousand winds that blow,
I am the diamond glints on snow,
I am the sun on ripened grain,
I am the gentle autumn rain.
When you awaken in the morning’s hush
I am the swift uplifting rush
Of quiet birds in circling flight.
I am the soft star-shine at night.
Do not stand at my grave and cry,
I am not there; I did not die.
Mary Elizabeth Frye

Till One of Us Can’t Take It

Posted by James Browning on

Two may love each other yet not be able to live together. You get jealous.  I have difficulty expressing my love. You get raging mad. I don’t like sex often. You do. We’re from different countries. We sleep in separate beds as often as together. Is our marriage doomed? D.F.

… we feel everything but yet we see nothing.
… still we shed tears of promise
… holding on to this love cause our hearts say to stay
… even thought our minds say to let go and move on
… so we stay and hurt each other
… till one of us can’t take it any more.
Adapted from a poem by Kidd

Love or Madness?

Posted by James Browning on

It’s agreed going our separate ways is best. We’ve hurt each other far too much to expect our wounds to ever heal while we’re together. Yet, I can’t seem to leave and you don’t appear to want to either. What is it that holds us together and won’t let go. Is it love or madness? V.M.


I’m sorry
I’m not perfect.
I’m sorry
I’m here.
I’m sorry
I didn’t end this
I couldn’t disappear.
Unknown

Days of Absence

Posted by James Browning on

There are times when recollections of you float to the top of my mind and stick for a while before sinking back down into memory. Our wedding anniversary, the way you made my birthdays special and how much you love Christmas are just a few. I miss you still… B.G.

Days of absence,
sad and dreary,
Clothed in sorrow’s
dark array, –
Days of absence,
I am weary;
She I love
is far away.
Jean-Jacques Rousseau

I Can’t Help Myself

Posted by James Browning on

Sometimes as I start to wake up in the morning I forget you’re gone. Then as consciousness comes I don’t feel you near me, my eyes open and the reality of you no longer sleeping with me falls hard again.  It’s all I can do to keep going. I wish I did not miss you so much. S.T.

I’m trying not to love you
I’m trying not to care
I’m trying not to live my life wishing you were there
I’m trying not to wonder where you are or what you do
I’m sorry I can’t help myself
I fell in love with you