No Despair So Absolute

broken20heart1You’ve moved on. I haven’t be able to. My life is so ordinary without “us” and loneliness for you is almost unbearable at times. I even miss the bad stuff and realize now I should have been more understanding and forgiving. If I had, I would not have driven you away. S.O.

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There is no despair so absolute
as that which comes with
our first great sorrow.
Before we know what it is
to have loved and lost,
to despaired and have recovered hope.
George Elliot

It’s My Fault You’re Gone

broken20heart1Forcing myself to forget you doesn’t work. I’ve tried over and over. Oh, how I wish the love in my heart would fade, but it’s stuck there. It’s my fault you’re gone and don’t want me. I’m beginning to believe I’ll never get over the pain and heartache of losing you.

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Wanting him is hard to forget,
loving him is hard to regret,
losing him is hard to accept,
but even with all the hurt I’ve felt,
letting go is the most painful yet.
Unknown

Pain, Pain Go Away

broken20heart1When I thought you loved me were the happiest days of my life. Now that you don’t places me in the darkest time I have ever endured. Without you days feel like they are a thousand hours long. Each sleepless night passes with no rest for my broken heart. L.L.

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Pain, pain go away!
Please do not come back another day.
Tears falling down my face
oh how I wish for his warm embrace.
Pain, pain go away
bring me back to another day
where he loved me and
we thought we were meant to be.
Pain, pain go away
leave me alone and do not stay.
How can he stand there and break my heart
How did we allow us to grow so far apart?
Taken from
“Pain Pain Go Away”
by Kari Johnston

Haven’t Forgiven You Yet

broken20heart1My memory is clearing. I remember the times you should have/could have treated me better. Telling me you said one thing but felt something completely different doesn’t repair the injury to my trust. I still love you, but realize now I haven’t forgiven you yet. J.L. 

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The things two people do
to each other they remember.
If they stay together,
it’s not because they forget;
it’s because they forgive.
From the movie “Indecent Proposal”

A Sacredness In Tears

broken20heart1You hurt me when you pretended not to love me. I believed you and thought you didn’t care. Finding out years later you loved me all along doesn’t take away the pain felt and carried for years. But it will let the wound to heal to where now only a scar will remain.

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There is a sacredness in tears.
They are not the mark of weakness, but of power.
They speak more eloquently than ten thousand tongues.
They are messengers of overwhelming grief…
and unspeakable love.
Washington Irving

Echo of My Own Voice

broken20heart1After you were gone a magnitude of grief arrived, but that wasn’t the worst of it. The hardest part was no longer being able to hug you every day, in hearing only the echo of my own voice when I spoke your name, sleeping without your body against mine and waking alone.

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Grief can take care of itself,
but to get the full value of joy,
you must have somebody to divide it with.
Mark Twain

Look At Me Closely

broken20heart1My ability to pretend has gotten really good. I make believe that you will come back to me. I tell friends I really never cared about you. On the outside I pretend everything is just fine and I’m happy, but I love you and am dying inside. Without you every day is hell. B.R.

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Behind my smile is a hurting heart
Behind my laughs I’m falling apart
Look at me closely and you will see
The girl I am just isn’t me.
Anonymous

My Prayers

broken20heart1Many times I have prayed for my memories of you to let go their strong hold on me. My prayers are those of a beggar pleading in desperation to be free. PLEASE open my heart to love again. He is never coming back. Please help me find happiness with another. R.L.

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I dim my lights & lock my door,
as I spread your pictures on the floor.
I blow the dust off of our past.
I let it all come flooding back,
cause it’s not easy being strong.
Unknown

It’s Takes A Lifetime

broken20heart1I’ve accepted the fact that we can’t be. I’ve also accepted that you’re going to be that one person I carry with me for the rest of my life, the one that is always going to make my heart jump a little and my stomach tie up in knots no matter how happy I am otherwise. R.W.

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It takes only a minute
to get a crush on someone,
an hour to like someone,
and a day to love someone,
but it takes a lifetime
to forget someone.
Anonymous

Constant Regret

broken20heart1Missing you isn’t the hardest part. Knowing I once had you is what breaks my heart. What drove me to look outside our relationship I can only describe as insanity. When people ask what happened I’m ashamed to admit what I did. I live with constant regretM.E.

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You will never know true happiness
until you have truly loved,
and you will never understand
what pain really is until you have lost it.
Anonymous