All my worries about you leaving did nothing to stop you from going. The pain I borrowed in advance is now stirred in with the hurt from you breaking up with me. I know my frets and worry contributed to your departure but I could not stop myself. L.S.

… anticipatory fear is always
twice as strong as present fear.
Anticipatory fear has both fears in it at once –
the anticipatory one and the one
that comes simultaneously
with the dread happening itself.
Cornell Woolrich