Monthly Archives: October 2012

Gone Forever

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Most days I get a little better at letting you go, but it’s damn hard! I still love you and miss you. Once in a while I wake up and for a moment wonder why you’re not in bed with me, then I remember; you don’t want me any more. You’ve moved on. I hope some day I can too. F.O.

Forget his name
Forget his face
Forget his kiss
His warm embrace
Forget the love you once knew
Remember he has someone new
Forget him when they played your song
Remember when you cried all night long
Forget how close you once were
Remember he has chosen her
Forget how you memorized his walk
Forget the way he use to talk
Forget the things he used to say
Remember he has gone away
Forget his laugh forget his grin
Forget the dimples on his chin
Forget the way he held you tight
Remember he’s with her tonight
Forget the time that went so fast
Forget the love that moved, it passed
Forget he said he’d leave you never
Remember he is gone forever.
Unknown

When Your Heart Breaks Open

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You believed in me when I didn’t deserve it. You stood by me when no one else would. But I let addiction almost destroy me. What we once shared was ruined by what I did. I’ve been sober now for seventeen months. Losing you broke me open and saved my life. E.S.

I understand that if you have never suffered
a broken heart, then you have never
really known what it is to truly be alive.
And I understand that at that precise moment,
when your heart breaks open,
that all you want to do is lay down and die!
Because you know that is the only way
the pain is ever going to stop.
Patti Roberts

A Blessed Curse

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Love lost and long remembered is a blessed curse. Day and night my mind silently mumbles your name saying “I’m sorry” over and over. I became a clown in the circus and have spent my life painting a smile on my face every day and hiding underneath it. K.T.

You can love someone so much…
But you can never love people
as much as you can miss them.
John Green

I’d Go Back If I Could

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After we broke up I lost track of you. Sometimes I wonder where you are or what you’re doing. Did you move away? Settle down? Are you happy? Are you in love? Do you have children? It’s been ten years and still I have thoughts of you. Do you still think of me? J.B.

I wonder do you think of me
And remember the park
Where you struck the spark
To a fire that’s still burning
… in my heart.
I can tell you that I’ve never
Felt like that since.
I don’t know if you would
But I’d go back if I could.
Keith Whitley

Will You Come Home?

Posted by James Browning on

My fears drive me crazy and I often make you nuts with my insecurities. I’m jealous too often. For no particular reason I constantly fear you leaving me. I know I’m a mess and need help. If I go to counseling and work really hard to get better, will you come home? Please? A.F.

After all, what is happiness?
Love, they tell me.
But love doesn’t bring
and never has brought happiness.
On the contrary,
it’s a constant state of anxiety,
a battlefield;
it’s sleepless nights,
asking ourselves all the time
if we’re doing the right thing.
Real love is composed of ecstasy and agony.
Paulo Coelho

I Thought You’d Come Back

Posted by James Browning on

The phrase is over-used but accurate; “you don’t know what you’ve got until it’s gone”. I was self-absorbed and forgot you were as important in our relationship as me. I treated you badly. When you’d had enough; you left. I thought you’d come back, but you didn’t. V.M.

I know that’s what people say–
you’ll get over it.
I’d say it, too,
But I know it’s not true.
Oh, you’ll be happy again,
never fear.
But you won’t forget.
Every time you fall in love
it will be because
something in the man reminds you of him.
Betty Smith

Still Loud Days Later

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Bumping into you was completely unexpected. It’s been years since I last saw you. With “how are you’s” and small talk my love for you began shouting in my heart again. The volume of that voice in my heart is still loud days later. I love you. I always will. I miss you so. A.O.

Our eyes crossed
my voice was lost
Her smile
destroyed my soul.
Words were broken
thoughts were woken
Why must
she torment me so.
From “Her smile destroyed my soul” by Peter Wetzel

Can’t Not Do

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You say you need space and time to figure things out. If you truly loved me there would be no questions; being together would be a “can’t not do”. The uncertainty shows you don’t love me enough to make a commitment. I accept that and am not waiting for you anymore. C.D.

If little by little you stop loving me
I shall stop loving you
Little by little
If suddenly you forget me
Do not look for me
For I shall already have forgotten you.
Pablo Neruda

Rest of My Life

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Lust is a blinder. Trying to blame it on animal instinct makes me sound stupid. Saying it was only sex makes me look ignorant. Saying that me cheating on you was stupid is accurate and its price is so high I will be paying for it the rest of my life. I lost you my darling. C.B.

When you have indulged a lust, your wing drops off;
you become lame, abandoned by a fantasy.
…People fancy they are enjoying themselves,
but they are really tearing out their wings
for the sake of an illusion.
Rumi

Lost Something Wonderful

Posted by James Browning on

You never called me beautiful. Not once. Not beautiful, not pretty, not cute, not smart, not interesting, not funny, not sweet, not nice, not awesome. And you know what? I am all those things. In time you will realize you have lost something wonderful; me. It will be too late. K.D.

The Young Man came to the Old Man seeking counsel.
“I broke something, Old Man”.
“How badly is it broken?”
“It’s in a million little pieces.”
“I’m afraid I can’t help you.”
“Why?”
“There’s nothing you can do.”
“Why?”
“It can’t be fixed.”
“Why?”
“It’s broken beyond repair. It’s in a million little pieces.”
James Frey