Only An Episode

broken20heart1All I am and thought I could be was yours, but it was not enough. How was I to know you were only playing around? You said all the right things and made the best moves to get me fall in love with you. I was ALL yours, but you grew tired of me and faded away. L.S.

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To me our love was everything
and you were my whole life.
It is not very pleasant to realize
that to you it was only an episode.
From “The Painted Veil” by W. Somerset Maugham

Outside and Inside

broken20heart1Most of the time I’m fine; sometimes I’m not. Tears don’t show up often anymore when I remember what we shared. However, when I lie in bed at night remembering the tenderness in how we once made love, I cry tears on the outside and inside all over my heart. K.M.

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Real Tears Are Not Those
That Fall From Eyes
And Cover The Face,
But Those That Fall From Heart
And Cover The Soul…
Christina Ricci

Sacredness In Tears

broken20heart1There’s no one who would understand what I’m going through. When you said goodbye to me, I did not let it show I was breaking inside. I haven’t let anyone else see either. But when I am alone, about all I do is cry over what has been lost. My grief is long and deep. H.C.

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There is a sacredness in tears.
They are not the mark of weakness, but of power.
They speak more eloquently than ten thousand tongues.
They are messengers of overwhelming grief…
and unspeakable love.
Washington Irving

A Beginning, A Middle, and an End

broken20heart1I wonder how things might have turned out if we had met now when we are both single instead of back when we were married. The deceit and stress of our affair damned us from the start. Something good is rarely successfully built from doing what is wrong. L.K.

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A love affair is like a short story;
it has a beginning, a middle, and an end.
The beginning was easy, the middle might drag,
invaded by commonplace, but the end,
instead of being decisive and well-knit
with that element of revelatory surprise
as a well-written story should be,
it usually dissipated in a succession
of messy and humiliating anticlimaxes.
F. Scott Fitzgerald

I’m Still Here

broken20heart1Once in a while I still shed a tear over breaking up with you. Every time my mind screams “YOU SCREWED UP” because letting you go was a huge mistake . You moved on, married and have a child now. How do I forgive myself? How do I stop loving you? C.W.

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They told me to give up, to let you go
and they promised that someday
I’ll find someone else. At first I believed them
but after a while I started realizing they were wrong.
Now you’re gone and you’re not coming back.
You moved on and forgot about me,
but I’m still here wishing someday
you will come back
and will have our second chance.
Mahmoud El Hallab

Never Saw You Again

broken20heart1Getting involved with an engaged woman was crazy. The months we secretly shared were wonderful with plenty of horrible moments mixed in. The night before your wedding you showed up at my front door. We spent the night together. I never saw you again. D.E.

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It seemed so good when it started.
I gave my trust to you.
I came to you open-hearted,
Hoping it was true.
Now I’ve gotten smart.
Now I’ve learned some things.
Now I know that what once was a start,
Is just an ending.
The longest good-bye
I ever knew,
The longest good-bye
Was the day
I said hello to you.
Heather Lynn Rigaud

What Is It So Hard

broken20heart1Bruises, lies, fake smiles, constant cries and a horrifying past. Promises broken, lost loves and the “trust me” that didn’t last. I should have left the first time you hit me. People ask me why it’s so hard to trust anyone and I ask them why is it so hard to keep a promise. T.M.

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I’m not upset
that you lied to me,
I’m upset that
from now on
I can’t believe you.
Friedrich Nietzsche

Can’t Forgive Myself

broken20heart1There are still moments when I have to take a deep breath before speaking to keep from crying. I’ve learned to hide my sadness so well that everyone thinks I’m fine. It’s only me that knows how tortured I am on the inside. I hurt you and I can’t forgive myself for it. D.L.

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I never guessed
I could cry so hard
my face hurt.
Vernor Vinge

Better In Time

broken20heart1After you broke up with me it seemed I couldn’t go an hour without thinking about you. In my dreams there was a strong presence of you for a very long time. Slowly, you began to fade into the past, but never completely. Even now I wonder if you are well and happy. K.S.

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Thought I couldn’t live without you;
It’s gonna hurt when it heals too;
It’ll all get better in time
Even though I really love you;
I’m gonna smile cause I deserve to;
It’ll all get better in time.
From the song “Better In Time”
by Leona Lewis

Go Away

broken20heart1On again; then off again. You want me; then you don’t. You say you can’t live without me and go make a life with someone else. Up and down like a yoyo, but, guess what! I’m not going to let you do from now on. I don’t believe in you anymore. Go away. Leave me alone. S.J.

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I don’t miss him,
I miss who
I thought he was.
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