I Thought I Could Imagine

broken20heart11The love in my heart does not care if we are together or not. You no longer being here does not diminish my feelings; that only increases my pain. I dreamed that you came back. One day I think you will, but will I still love and want you then? C.B.

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I think you still love me,
but we can’t escape the fact
that I’m not enough for you.
I knew this was going to happen.
So I’m not blaming you…
I’m not angry, either.
I should be, but I’m not.
I just feel pain. A lot of pain.
I thought I could imagine
how much this would hurt,
but I was wrong.
Haruki Murakami

From the Distance

broken20heart11The last thing I want is for you to go, but I know you’re going. You don’t love me like I love you. You’re still searching and don’t really know yet what you need. No words can’t change your mind. There is nothing I can do but let you go and love you from a distance. S.D.

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Fire runs through my body with the pain of loving you;
Pain runs through my body with the fires of my love for you;
Sickness wanders my body with my love for you;
Pain like a boil about to burst with my love for you;
Consumed by the fire with my love for you.
I remember what you said to me;
I am thinking of your love for me;
I am torn by your love for me;
Pain and more pain.
Where are you going with my love?
I am told you will go from here
I am told you will leave me here;
My body is numb with grief;
Remember what I have said, my love
Good bye, my love, good bye.
recited by a Kwakuitl Indian of Southern Alaska

Very Sad

broken20heart11You have broken my heart. By jumping to conclusions and only seeing things your way your reason for leaving me behind is, in no small measure, a figment of your imagination. The outcome is the same: I have lost my best friend. Very sad. C.B.

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At some point of your life,
you will become aware
that some people can stay
in your heart but not in your life.
Anonymous

It Does Not Matter

broken20heart11Shock still engulfs me. One day you were in love with me. The next you wanted nothing to do with me. There was no doubt within that I loved you, but you leaving made me realize how very deeply I feel about you. It does not matter. You’re gone. L.L.

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Softly as a gentle breeze,
Love crept into my heart
So softly I did not realize
Until we came to part.
‘Twas then that love so suddenly
Grew claws, and without warning
Clamped around my heart and left
Me bleeding and in mourning.
So stunned was I by this attack,
I did not cry out “stay! “
And, frowning at my silence,
You turned and walked away.
I never knew, until you left,
How much you’d meant to me
And now you’re gone, I guess
Our love was never meant to be.
“Never Meant To Be”
by Earthbound Angel

Inexplicably Intertwined

broken20heart11So much of my life revolved around you. From what time I get up to what I eat; from what I watch on TV to the positions I sleep in; from my plans for the future to how I dress are all inexplicably intertwined with you.  I’ve become lost from losing you. T.G.

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A habit cannot be
tossed out the window.
It must be coaxed
down the stairs
one step at a time.
Mark Twain

Dying With It

broken20heart11Who am I? I don’t know anymore. I used to, but now I don’t. You coming into my life changed me permanently. Now you leaving me behind is changing me even further into someone, something, I don’t like. Love is dying and I’m dying with it. T.G.

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I want to cry
I want to scream
I want to tell you mostly
I hate that I’m so afraid of everything
I hate that you’re the one thing I want the most but can’t have
I hate that you let me go before I got even got to say goodbye
I wish that you would come back to me
I wish I were strong enough to say no to you
I wish I could believe my own lies I use to cover up the pain you left
I need to move on says my head
I need to hold on says my heart
I need to decide says my mind
I envy the way this hasn’t hurt you at all
I envy her
I envy the fact you don’t understand what this feels like at all
I want to hurt you
I want to be with you
I want this nightmare to be over
I wish I could make things they were before you
I wish I could change time
I wish I could change you
I wish I could have hurt you before you hurt me
I wish I would have given you the letter when I wanted
I need you out of my thoughts
I need you out of my heart
I need to start doing things for me
I hate that you used me
I hate that I gave you something I can never have back
I hate that I wasted it with you
I’m tired of hoping aimlessly for you
I’m tired of wanting something I can’t have
I’m tired of hurting me for things that aren’t my fault
I’m sorry I was good enough
I’m sorry I defended you when everyone else was right
I’m sorry I couldn’t make you happy
Funny though how you never once said sorry for hurting me,
for breaking me,
for not loving me.
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