Category Archives: Guilt and Shame

Got Tired of It

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broken20heart1You said I was beautiful. I didn’t believe it. I saw a woman too tall, overweight with lousy hair and big feet. When you’d say “you’re perfect for me” I though it couldn’t be true.  I wish I had listened. I put myself down for so much for so long, you got tired of it and left. C.S.

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She wanted to have him hold her
and tell her all the demons were pretend,
that there was no monster in her closet,
that everything would be okay.
But that was a lie.
The demon was in her head,
telling her she was too fat.
She had to get the demon out.
But she couldn’t do it by herself.
Jackie Morse Kessler

Let Me Make It Up To You

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broken20heart1I’ve obsessed over the thought “you don’t know what you had until it’s gone” so much I get sick at my stomach every time I think it. If I could turn back time to before I left, I’d be faithful for always and never leave you. Please take me back Baby. PLEASE!!! A.L.

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It’s gonna hurt so bad if you walk away
Why don’t you stay and let me make it up to you
Stay I’ll do anything you want me to
You loved me before please love me again
I can’t let you go back to him
Please don’t go
Please don’t go
From “Hurt So bad” by The Imperials

Steady Drain

Posted by James Browning on

broken20heart1Up and downs, but a lot more downs than ups; that’s you and me. The happy times aren’t worth the constant fighting and bickering we can’t break out of. We need to admit we’re not a good fit for each other before there’s so much damage you and I hate each other. B.T.

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For weeks and months it is a steady physical pain,
an ache about the heart, never leaving one,
by night or by day; a long strain on one’s nerves
like toothache or rheumatism,
not intolerable at any one instant,
but exhausting by its steady drain on the strength.
Henry Brooks Adams

Never Saw You Again

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broken20heart1Getting involved with an engaged woman was crazy. The months we secretly shared were wonderful with plenty of horrible moments mixed in. The night before your wedding you showed up at my front door. We spent the night together. I never saw you again. D.E.

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It seemed so good when it started.
I gave my trust to you.
I came to you open-hearted,
Hoping it was true.
Now I’ve gotten smart.
Now I’ve learned some things.
Now I know that what once was a start,
Is just an ending.
The longest good-bye
I ever knew,
The longest good-bye
Was the day
I said hello to you.
Heather Lynn Rigaud

It’s My Fault You’re Gone

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broken20heart1Forcing myself to forget you doesn’t work. I’ve tried over and over. Oh, how I wish the love in my heart would fade, but it’s stuck there. It’s my fault you’re gone and don’t want me. I’m beginning to believe I’ll never get over the pain and heartache of losing you.

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Wanting him is hard to forget,
loving him is hard to regret,
losing him is hard to accept,
but even with all the hurt I’ve felt,
letting go is the most painful yet.
Unknown

She Wished To Keep Him

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broken20heart1Long after breaking up with me you wanted us to have sex while your new boyfriend watched. Problem was I still loved you and couldn’t go there, even to be physically close to you. What’s in my heart made anything except truly making love with you impossible. M.E.

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He had placed himself at her feet so long
that the poor little woman had been accustomed
to trample upon him. She didn’t wish to marry him,
but she wished to keep him. She wished to give
him nothing, but that he should give her all.
It is a bargain not unfrequently levied in love.
From “Vanity Fair”
 by William Makepeace Thackeray

Breaks My Heart In Two

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broken20heart1As the days come and go I try not to think of you. But I do anyway. Attempting to make those thoughts go away only causes more loneliness for you. As difficult as missing you is, it’s not the hardest part. Knowing I once had you is what breaks my heart in two. E.C.

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Those who don’t know how
to weep with their whole heart,
don’t know how to laugh either.
Golda Meir

The Thought of Losing You

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broken20heart1No matter how long the truth is left unspoken, it still remains true. We can’t be together now. You have your wife; I have a husband; we both have little ones. Oh, the children; the children. We love them so much and could never leave our kids while they are so small. E.L.

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Love can come and go
receiving less than it deserves.
It’s all part of the game,
the same game that’s
driving me insane.
And I never felt so deep,
so deeply in love.
I can’t even speak
my eyes are welling up.
The thought of losing you
is killing me and I know
it’s killing you.
Quincy Mumford

Constant Regret

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broken20heart1Missing you isn’t the hardest part. Knowing I once had you is what breaks my heart. What drove me to look outside our relationship I can only describe as insanity. When people ask what happened I’m ashamed to admit what I did. I live with constant regret.  M.E.

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You will never know true happiness
until you have truly loved,
and you will never understand
what pain really is until you have lost it.
Anonymous

You Took It All

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The tears I have cried over you would fill a bucket. I did things against my beliefs because you wanted me to. At your feet I laid everything; my virtue, my pride, my heart, my love and you took it all. Then you left me a heartbroken wreck, inconsolable and hating myself. E.Y.

I was born the day you kissed me,
died the day you left me,
but lived for the time that you loved me.
Anju