I Just Feel Pain

broken20heart11All your little secrets, deceptions and past unfaithfulness have accumulated into a heavy jagged weight in my heart. Now you just get mad when I question you. Maybe its time you had the freedom to find out what life is like without me. C.B.

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I think you still love me, but we can’t escape the fact
that I’m not enough for you. I knew this was going to happen.
I’m not angry, either. I should be, but I’m not.
I just feel pain. A lot of pain.
I thought I could imagine how much this would hurt,
but I was wrong.
Haruki Murakami

Do You Really

broken20heart11Where things for us go now, I have no idea. You don’t know for sure what you want and are moving out. You say you love me, but those words seem to come from you mind and not your heart. You say you want our committed relationship to continue. Do you really? C.B.

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The scariest thing about distance
is that you don’t know whether
they’ll miss you or forget you.
Nicholas Sparks, “The Notebook”

From the Distance

broken20heart11The last thing I want is for you to go, but I know you’re going. You don’t love me like I love you. You’re still searching and don’t really know yet what you need. No words can’t change your mind. There is nothing I can do but let you go and love you from a distance. S.D.

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Fire runs through my body with the pain of loving you;
Pain runs through my body with the fires of my love for you;
Sickness wanders my body with my love for you;
Pain like a boil about to burst with my love for you;
Consumed by the fire with my love for you.
I remember what you said to me;
I am thinking of your love for me;
I am torn by your love for me;
Pain and more pain.
Where are you going with my love?
I am told you will go from here
I am told you will leave me here;
My body is numb with grief;
Remember what I have said, my love
Good bye, my love, good bye.
recited by a Kwakuitl Indian of Southern Alaska

Very Sad

broken20heart11You have broken my heart. By jumping to conclusions and only seeing things your way your reason for leaving me behind is, in no small measure, a figment of your imagination. The outcome is the same: I have lost my best friend. Very sad. C.B.

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At some point of your life,
you will become aware
that some people can stay
in your heart but not in your life.
Anonymous

What Might Be

broken20heart11Outwardly it appears I have moved on and that’s true… well, mostly… sometimes. There’s no doubt you have moved on and I am just a fixture in your past. But for me my love for you still bounces between what was and what I still have hope for what might be. S.P.

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I’m so tired, but I can’t sleep…
standing on the edge of something much too deep…
funny how I feel so much but cannot say a word…
we are screaming inside, oh, but we can’t be heard…
so afraid to love you, more afraid to lose…
clinging to a past..
Sarah McLachlan

Never to Heal

broken20heart11I used to think we might get back together. However, now I know what is done, is done. What we once shared lives only in the past now. I may have started the storm of hurt, but you threw plenty in the hurricane too. Our love became crippled, never to heal. O.A.

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Grab a plate and throw it on the floor
Okay, done.
Did it break?
Yes.
Okay, now say sorry to it.
Sorry.
Did it go back to how it was before?
No.
Now do you understand?
Unknown

Determination to Carry On

broken20heart11My heart was broken so badly moving on was impossible for years . Love failed because I never gave all of me and was dishonest. Now the grandest love of my life has arrived. This time I’m giving everything and risking it all. She’s worth it! B.C.

imagesCALE855NWe go through life looking
for someone to call our own,
someone who will give us
the determination to carry on.
And that someone I have
found in you,
a love honest and so
totally true.
Jesse DeLance Sutton